Help Method suggestion

[LevUwU]

I don't have access to a gun nor a tall building in my area. Those were my primary options but due to prevention methods from others have become unavailable. I don't want to suffer in pain with something like hanging, I also don't have any expendable cash. Any suggestions, or should I just suck it up and accept the pain as I die.

 

[Forveleth]

It us against the site rules to tell someone how to kill themselves. You need to find something that works for you by yourself.

 

[PnCinSyzygy]

This site has so much information. Just keep reading and you will probably be able to narrow your options to one or two things. Like I did. It didn't take long.

Even if you decide not to do anything it's worth thinking about anyway.

I was bedside with both my parents and my mother-in-law as they walked through the valley of the shadow towards the light and an insight came to me as I sat helpless to influence a single thing about their walk.

The insight was this: I was present and a witness while they underwent the MOST IMPORTANT event of their lives. No single event, not getting married, not becoming parents, no single event after their birth was as important as this one. And like with all events of great meaning and magnitude, death deserves at the very least the same kind of care and sacred reverence and planning as a birth or a wedding. If not more.

So plan with care and reverence for yourself and for the life you've had the courage to lead. Be deliberate and don't be in a hurry.

My avatar is a painting I created many years ago. It's called "Alchemy" and it represents the sacred fire of experience burning away everything about the human that isn't pure gold. That gold core is you, me, and everyone who has had the balls to put on an earth suit and feel what it feels like to be someone. You deserve an exit that is worthy of that core of gold. Whether you decide to do anything or nothing, just the planning part will pull many other things into focus.

I wish you all your very best outcomes, no matter what form they take.