Anyone in these forums that has decided to CTB consider themselves free from mental Illness? Living the so called "normal life" but just want to end it all?
Yes, in my case the main reason that has led me to consider suicide is my continuous fight against depression and anxiety.
I was an unwanted baby and grew up in a dysfunctional family.
At the age of 12 I developed tourette syndrome and obsessive compulsive disorder due to the enormous stress in my environment.
I suffered continuous bullying at school because my classmates saw me as a freak due to my disorders.
At the age of 19 I had my first panic attacks of extreme intensity.
Due to all these problems I was unable to enter the university despite my good grades since by then I had already developed an intense social phobia.
As I entered adulthood I had some calm moments which I destroyed myself when I embarked on a self-destructive spiral abusing alcohol and drugs.
Today I am a completely broken 46 year old adult, I have developed a strong addiction to benzodiazepines and I basically can't go on with this life anymore.
So, answering your question, I would say yes, the main reason that makes me consider committing suicide is my mental and emotional problems added to family, personal and economic problems.
Basically my life is a life gone wrong and I'm reaching levels of despair I've never had before.
I am running out of options and I feel and know that I can no longer continue in this way.
This is only my second post so please forgive me if I make any mistakes.
English is not my first language