Mental hospital / psych ward

[lainsitooo]

I've always wanted to be on a mental hospital. This sounds very weird, and I really never understood why. I know it's a place that you don't want to be in, but i always found comfort in such places. Maybe I want to go in just to prove that I am really ill, or to people to actually care of me. I don't think I will ever be on one, although I have "what it needs" to be in one, my country doesn't provide good healthcare related to mental health. Rather be there than living my normal life I guess.

 

[theDunce]

I was only in for 7 days once. I could see how you would think it's comforting. It seems like you just sleep and walk around in pajamas so it does give a vibe of a completely stress free environment. They gave me different medications testing my system and basically just ate and slept and walked around. It was getting quite boring but they also had a schedule to keep, when to eat, when to draw with crayons etc., when to watch a movie or have ice cream.

I would not want to go back though, if I had stayed any longer I feel that it might have driven me crazier. Many people would explode and there was always someone going off and getting nuts throughout each day and night.

 

[lainsitooo]

I was only in for 7 days once. I could see how you would think it's comforting. It seems like you just sleep and walk around in pajamas so it does give a vibe of a completely stress free environment. They gave me different medications testing my system and basically just ate and slept and walked around. It was getting quite boring but they also had a schedule to keep, when to eat, when to draw with crayons etc., when to watch a movie or have ice cream.

I would not want to go back though, if I had stayed any longer I feel that it might have driven me crazier. Many people would explode and there was always someone going off and getting nuts throughout each day and night.

probably it would drive me crazy too, but i still have that idea and I don't know why.

 

[Asya]

I've been twice. Honestly the first time was a pretty good time. I was a teenager and my parents pre-selected a decent proper mental hospital for me. I liked the people I met there, and hung out with. They had a Wii room with guitar hero and shit. It felt like a getaway camp to me. But I was in a much, much better mental state then than I am now, or the second time. The second time was mostly boring and distressing. I was in a shitty psych ward that was clearly underfunded and only served to give you medication and push you out. The only activity available was walking up and down a hallway. We weren't even allowed outside and there were bars on the windows. The whole place was in disrepair. I met like three other people who were lucid and chill that I spent my time chatting with. I really just wanted help, though, and got none. I had less access to mental health support in there than I did outside. I was also cut off from everyone I cared about and the activities that would keep me "sane", so. It was a big net negative. I also had a scary experience where the nurse assigned to supervise me (and some others, just like, they check in on you and stuff) tried to push some anti-queer shit onto me and it clicked how much power this person with such disgusting ideas had over me. Thankfully nothing happened but it was scary. Overall, I think there's no point in going. They're not there to help you. No mental health support that exists as an institution really is. Not for people far gone enough to be posting in some place like this, anyway.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I've been in twice, the longest being 7 months. If you think you have it bad, there are people in there who definitely should not be in public.

The one I was in was pretty badass, I had a blast. They had a little snack station with fruits, pudding, jello, etc, that you could get anytime you wanted. Most people were there for thoughts or attempts of ctb. Some were plain batshit crazy.

There was one guy who would argue with himself, and get into a fight....with himself. He'd punch himself in the face, twist his own arm and slam himself into the wall, kick himself in the other leg, bite, scratch, plus lay down on the floor trying to put himself in a headlock. That was always entertaining. All it needed was for someone else yelling for him to kick his ass.

But all in all, being there made me feel more comfortable being around others who thought and felt the same way I did. I kept in contact with a couple of them when I, or them, got released. One got married and managed to improve his well being, 3 ctb, and the others disappeared (stopped responding to my texts) so I don't know what became of them.

Yeah, I'd go back.