Venting Mental health unraveling

[WildAtHeart]

I haven't been here in quite a long time.

I feel bad to be Saying this because I realise there are people with much worse circumstances than me, but I recently got my first proper job, it appears everything is going right for me but deep down I'm hurting so bad and my emotional health has just been getting progressively worse so I just smoke weed constantly to not have to think, but I think I've been smoking too much or my combining it with somewhat regular other drug use, lack of sleep has just been wearing me down and I have begun having full panic attacks sometimes which never occurred before.

Im trying to appear okay to everyone around me but it's exhausting

 

[verdedefome]

You shouldn't feel bad or guilty about struggling even though other people have it worse, unless you're the reason they're in a worse circumstance than you. You probably already know that using drugs to mask your feelings doesn't work long term and neither is trying to appear okay. Hopefully if you have people you want to appear okay to, you have people you can reach out for help.

 

[7FDL16]

I feel you. I have a decent job with benefits, family and friends who care about me, a car, my own apartment. But all I can think about is sh and suicide. I'm badly addicted to weed and can't bring myself to do much at all when I have free time.
You don't have to be okay. Just focus on getting through the day, one day at a time.