Medical appointments make me more suicidal

[unluckysadness]

Today I saw my new family doctor because my previous doctor is retired. She asked me a lot of things and did a full examination on me. I'm so bored with being a patient. I saw so many doctors for decades and some of them treated me just like shit (sometimes with humiliation).

So, this new doctor asked me if my neuromuscular disease was "OCD"... I said : No ! It's neurological. I even tried botox but it didn't work...

In April, I have 6 medical appointments. Next in 2 days : psychiatrist. I don't go outside because of my anxiety issues, so medical meetings are my only outings...

I'm so tired with all this shit !

 

[SASU-KE]

I hate the hospital and doctors. It's such a stifling environment. I always try to put off those visits as much as I can unless I really have to go.

Whenever I walk into those places, I just have this foreboding sense of doom.I feel you.

 

[Aflame5926]

Today I saw my new family doctor because my previous doctor is retired. She asked me a lot of things and did a full examination on me. I'm so bored with being a patient. I saw so many doctors for decades and some of them treated me just like shit (sometimes with humiliation).

So, this new doctor asked me if my neuromuscular disease was "OCD"... I said : No ! It's neurological. I even tried botox but it didn't work...

In April, I have 6 medical appointments. Next in 2 days : psychiatrist. I don't go outside because of my anxiety issues, so medical meetings are my only outings...

I'm so tired with all this shit !

its also so nice to have to tell your story 900000000000001 time and then find out well idk go to them.
or it so freaking annoying that each new doctor has a new "perspective"

they are really aiming to help you out (milking your life energy away)

the only thing i can say keep hanging in there.
rant as much as you want. if that make you feel better.

dont try to break that even a bus is to much effort or make you impulsive. stay strong

 

[wannabeangel]

my pain management appointment made me even more suicidal today, i will probably rant about it in my own vent thread soon, but the stress of it made me roll my wheelchair to where i could get a good sight of the highway not too far away, and just watched the cars speeding down it wondering how it would be if i just got up and jumped in front of a truck, and whispered asking for life to show me a sign its time to end it all