alivefornow
thinking about it
- Feb 6, 2023
- 166
No media vehicles see fit to mention how successful suicidal people are now free from their pain and suffering.
Here in Brazil we're going through "Setembro Amarelo" (Yellow September), a nationwide yearly campaign to promote suicide prevention.
I don't see how this campaign prevents any suicides at all. As if a yellow-themed month of the year would relieve the pain I feel in my heart every single minute of every single day, despite my efforts to take medicine and psychotherapy.
I guess non-suicidal people just don't get how it is to permanently desire to cease to exist. Campaigning against suicide and advising me to seek help, as if I haven't already exhausted my options.
Meanwhile I can't do it because of what I think I would put my family through, nor do I wish for anyone to commit suicide. I also encourage people to seek help because it's what one does. I can only speak for myself and my feelings, and I feel I'm beyond help. So fuck me and my hypocritical way of dealing with all this.
All's left for me is to wish for the world to swallow me while I live day after day with this disgusting pain, discomfort and suffering.
Here in Brazil we're going through "Setembro Amarelo" (Yellow September), a nationwide yearly campaign to promote suicide prevention.
I don't see how this campaign prevents any suicides at all. As if a yellow-themed month of the year would relieve the pain I feel in my heart every single minute of every single day, despite my efforts to take medicine and psychotherapy.
I guess non-suicidal people just don't get how it is to permanently desire to cease to exist. Campaigning against suicide and advising me to seek help, as if I haven't already exhausted my options.
Meanwhile I can't do it because of what I think I would put my family through, nor do I wish for anyone to commit suicide. I also encourage people to seek help because it's what one does. I can only speak for myself and my feelings, and I feel I'm beyond help. So fuck me and my hypocritical way of dealing with all this.
All's left for me is to wish for the world to swallow me while I live day after day with this disgusting pain, discomfort and suffering.