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Should I ctb that way?

  • Yes

    Votes: 2 14.3%
  • No

    Votes: 12 85.7%

  • Total voters
    14
oooobeeeeii

oooobeeeeii

Tired
Mar 18, 2023
145
Soooo I cant get heroin. Long story. But I cant get it. i can get mdma tho. Any thoughts? I can get xanax as well
 
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
mdma overdose are very rare you could get lucky and die off one pill
A man from Surrey, England dubbed Mr A took about 40000 MDMA or 'ecstasy' pills over nine years of his life
There was so much ecstasy in his system that he was high "for a few months" after he quit.
he had horrible memory loss
 
_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,140
a friend of me od'd on it and he experienced the opposite of what a MDMA trip felt like; anxiety, terror,..
I always advise against stimulants for ctb. Being hyper aware of what happens while you die might not be the best idea IMO.
 
phersper

phersper

F*ck psychiatry
Jun 28, 2023
165
I met a guy in the psych ward who took like 5g of mdma. He became a zombie, like a real zombie. Completely brain dead, barely able to eat on his own, to speak, to shower, to piss in a toilet. Please don't go that way, you'll end a real vegetable šŸ„•
 
G

gbi2

Specialist
Jul 10, 2023
311
I've been considering this too. I used to take a lot of Ecstasy in my youth and had one time where I blacked out, I think unconcious and although I was sweating like crazy I can't say it was a wholly bad experience as by the time my head fell back onto the back of the seating (I was in a nightclub) I think I was too far gone to feel pain or regret. I just remember thinking I'm going... and then coming too, how much later I don't know, with my head flipped back over the seating. Whether there was something else in it that caused the situation I don't know but when I came too and managed to get some water I felt lie I needed to take another one, which I did and actually felt fine afterwards, almost like being refreshed, I got up and danced for the remainder of the night.

But then I've had lots of other times when I've not had bad experiences from taking too much or a really bad one but from one just dodgy enough to make me feel on edge.

If I'd have died on that bad one I can't say I was aware of major discomfort or pain. I was aware something was going wrong and I didn't feel good but I wasn't capable of doing anything about it. What the dosage or any other ingredients were though, I couldn't say. It was around 1995.
 

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