3/4Dead
Peace, Love, Empathy
- Feb 27, 2024
- 470
Today my partner and I had a lengthy conversation where we essentially agreed that I'm sensitive and irrational. And I said all things considered if both of those things are really true i should probably isolate myself and consider calling it quits.
In that, I'm realizing that I think the only way I could continue living without hating it is accepting that I hate myself, that being alive is just new waves of suffering everyday, I'm a massive fuck up and can only rectify that by being as insignificant and inoffensive as possible, and there's nothing to be done about any of that.
Im told burying my feelings is unhealthy but this way I dont bury them, I just accept that I'm permanently miserable and live with it. It'll suck but at least i don't have to feel like im not trying hard enough.
Any thoughts? Anyone feel the same?
In that, I'm realizing that I think the only way I could continue living without hating it is accepting that I hate myself, that being alive is just new waves of suffering everyday, I'm a massive fuck up and can only rectify that by being as insignificant and inoffensive as possible, and there's nothing to be done about any of that.
Im told burying my feelings is unhealthy but this way I dont bury them, I just accept that I'm permanently miserable and live with it. It'll suck but at least i don't have to feel like im not trying hard enough.
Any thoughts? Anyone feel the same?
