Maybe I’m not strong

[El_Jefe]

I came here to die and now I realize that maybe I'm not that strong . Maybe I will live with these thoughts and ideations always . But some hope still keeps me around that maybe I should keep going . Oddly a part of me still wants to go. I hope that I heal and find peace . And noticing maybe I'm meant to heal and just looking for a connection with other people who are in pain and who are alone . So do I really want to die is a question that I'm still pondering in the mean time I'm trying to fight the suicidal thoughts and stay strong

 

[iamanavalanche]

you are SO strong for going through what you've went through. whatever you do, you'll always be strong to me

 

[El_Jefe]

Thanks Ava