Manifesting death

[flutebloom]

Does anybody pray that they're killed somehow? Like manifesting your own death in a way?

I don't have any goals anymore and don't feel a reason for existing so I'm kind of manifesting my own death in a way. Or trying to.

I've tried to take my life a couple of times and I failed. I'll probably try again but honestly wish I didn't have to go through the trouble. It's kind of stressful hanging yourself (that's my method)

 

[wiz_miz_03]

Does anybody pray that they're killed somehow?

Yes, every day, every night. I feel the same. I cannot do this anymore

 

[Pale_Rider]

It's sure would be a lot simpler if it just happened. That's kinda the reckless behavior right?

 

[other-ghost]

Does anybody pray that they're killed somehow? Like manifesting your own death in a way?

Oh, almost every day!

IMO it's easier to get killed rather than having to go through all the troubles of CTB-ing, so every day (even if i don't trust god that much) i pray that someone could end me.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Yes, it would be great if that happened to me.

 

[iwishtodie8]

It would be nice if that happened to me

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

I'd love to die naturally, it'd be less traumatic for the ones left, I think. Anyway, I practically beg for it, and nothing has happened - what am I expecting, tbh? Felt like a fool --' - so there's no other way: I'll have to CTB. At least, ppl can't say I didn't try to avoid the worst xD

 

[Sadbanana]

Idk if synchronicity or something similar exists, but sometimes I get those moments that I think about some word and when I take a turn it is on a buildboard.

Sometimes before I went to sleep I prayed I wouldn't wake up, that would be the easiest way. For me it is too traumatizing to even plan killing myself, it's like part of me is really scared and wants to cling to life.