Making peace with death

[Placo]

Are you at peace with the idea of dying or not?

 

[divinemistress87]

Since I believe in some sort of afterlife, Yes

 

[Hunter2005]

Yes

 

[SelfKill]

yes

 

[FuneralCry]

Not just at peace but in my case I see death as the only relief, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, all I wish for is to be unaware for all eternity. I find so much comfort in the thought of no longer being able to suffer in this undesirable and cruel existence, I'd be so glad to be free from existing, I see no value in the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human as it just causes nothing but suffering.

I'm truly so tired of existing, all I wish for is the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about. I never would have chosen existence if it's up to me, I see existence itself as the true problem, under no circumstances would I ever wish to suffer for decades on end with no limit as to how unbearable existing can get just to be tormented by old age and die anyway.

 

[real human being]

yeah

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes I'm at peace with dying.

After Death is non-existence forever

It will be like before I was born when I didn't have any problems.

The only reason I haven't killed myself is I fear remaining alive but with brain damage after a suicide attempt

All I am is this 1.8 kilogram brain. This brain can create an abomination beyond all words: the feeling of constant unending excruciating unbearable pain . But we are constantly told this consciousness / sentience/ living is a beautiful gift and that we have to be constantly grateful for the ability to suffer such pain and also suffer in many other ways, all for no objective purpose

I hate existing as a small animal, an ape , a monkey , a primate, a mouse .

 

[Meteora]

I m on the journey, I guess.

 

[Placo]

Since I didn't elaborate before I'll do it now, I don't know if I feel ready yet, I oscillate between moments in which I would genuinely like to die and others where I would like to stay alive even if it's a hellish life that I can't bear, the emptiness and boredom they are immense at times, probably always influenced by depression, I also tend to see death as decadent by focusing on unpleasant aspects of it such as decomposition or being closed forever in a coffin, even if I understand that these thoughts make no sense because I will be dead, yet they come to me, perhaps it's a sign that I'm not completely ready yet but at the same time I can't stand this situation anymore.

To overcome my fears I left written on two sheets of paper to cremate my body and avoid a Christian funeral, this gives me a certain sense of peace even if I'm not sure that my wishes will be respected. It would be extreme to be suicidal and at the same time suffer from thanatophobia, even if I don't think I suffer from it, perhaps in a mild form, and in any case fears can be overcome, I certainly don't stay alive because of the fear of dying.

 

[wisteria3]

I think so, but sometimes when I think about it too much nonexistence freaks me out. Like I'll never even experience a moment of relief where I'm like okay, my attempt worked and I'm dead now. Like I know it will be the end of my suffering, but I won't be able to appreciate or feel the relief from my suffering being over. And even though I know my family will suffer immensely, I'll never experience it so it's like, will it even happen? I mean I know it will, but not from my perspective, which is how all things seem to "happen." I will never experience the guilt or consequences of that aftermath, which feels like something I deserve to experience... I don't really know how to explain it. So I guess yes, I crave it, but sometimes I falter if I think too hard lol

 

[broth0100]

I dunno, i can't tell which of my thoughts r genuine sometimes. I would think i am yes but actually im probably not entirely

 

[Not Today Satan]

No, and I won't be able to until I've made sure that my abusers get the punishment they deserve. However, it'll be years until it comes to that point. Maybe at that time I would have found something to live for and permanently written off the possibility of CTB.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Absolutely. For me, once you recognize that all living things die there is nothing to accept as it the end result is undeniable and it is just a fact of existence.

 

[melancholymallory03]

I am nearly at peace with death

Once I complete my final arrangements and get my affairs in order I will be at peace.

Either way, can't avoid death, can avoid life though…

 

[dinosavr]

I'm 100% at peace with the idea of dying and I can't wait

 

[thebelljarrr]

Yeah It's comforting

 

[SadTitan]

I'm trying... I believe in reincarnation and before I'm reborn I plan to put more thought and planning into my next lives. Kinda like deleting and making a new save file yknow? lol

 

[Caliguy]

Yes I created such a mess in life that by me CTB it will be a relief to the world

 

[Placo]

I must say that I feel particularly at peace now, I should take advantage of it.

 

[waningmoth]

Im not completely at peace with it but recognise its necessity and im more and more at peace with that
It is what it is

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Are you at peace with the idea of dying or not?

No. I'm totally not at peace with my CTB. I must CTB due to physical health problems, but I'm extremely bitter. Before I had the health problems, I was extremely happy. Unfortunately, the health problems I have are incurable, so CTB it is for me, but I'll never be at peace with it.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm at peace with death. I have been for years. However, I'm not at peace with dying as trying to kill myself is scary and risky

 

[slightoverlooked]

no, i want to stay as long as my mother is alive. i dont think i can do this to her.

 

[divinemistress87]

I'm trying... I believe in reincarnation and before I'm reborn I plan to put more thought and planning into my next lives. Kinda like deleting and making a new save file yknow? lol

I always think about how I will plan for my next life to. Like do we plan our next lives with the help of our spirit guides?

 

[melancholymallory03]

I'm trying... I believe in reincarnation and before I'm reborn I plan to put more thought and planning into my next lives. Kinda like deleting and making a new save file yknow? lol

This is so smart…. Taking notes ….

 

[innominesatanas44]

I wasn't at first but coming to be at peace with it. Existence is just a blip in time. The world was fine before I was born and will move on after I die. I am happy that nature and people will flourish without me. Nothing of value will be lost, I am already a net negative on society because of health issues.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've long felt at ease with my own death although, I'm not sure when it comes to the crunch if I'll feel the same way. I remember feeling pretty nervous going in for an operation once. Not that it was all that risky but there's always the chance I suppose it could go wrong. But, it surprised me that I was nervous. I think maybe though because at the time, I only had a very out of date will drawn up. It was more anxiety over things not being in order I think.

 

[rotciv]

not completely at peace, although I wasn't completely happy due to some health problems and traumas, but if things hadn't gotten worse I would have managed somehow.

the emptiness and health problems have gotten worse so I feel like it's the best thing to do now.

 

[Placo]

At the moment I feel quite at peace, perhaps I lack a bit of motivation to do it but in my opinion the prospect of constant boredom should be enough.