Discussion Making a final effort to be fully understood.

[bianbianbianbian]

I think as I get closer to the day I'm going to leave, I feel the need to write more and post more on my social media and make it public and color and do more art and make more playlists etc. and let everyone see them in a final effort to be heard and seen as a human being. I will be dead, but at least people will see me and acknowledge me for who I was. I want people to know who I really am. Maybe it will help people after I go, maybe not. I do think at the end of the day my efforts will be in vain and no one try to listen or understand. It just gives me some relief to know that I could vicariously live through the things I've put out there instead of actually living at all. I don't know why but this is something on my mind 95% of the time.

 

[dolemitedrums]

Understandable. Those who will miss you may appreciate the ways you provide to stay connected somehow.

 

[sugarb]

I think as I get closer to the day I'm going to leave, I feel the need to write more and post more on my social media and make it public and color and do more art and make more playlists etc. and let everyone see them in a final effort to be heard and seen as a human being. I will be dead, but at least people will see me and acknowledge me for who I was. I want people to know who I really am. Maybe it will help people after I go, maybe not. I do think at the end of the day my efforts will be in vain and no one try to listen or understand. It just gives me some relief to know that I could vicariously live through the things I've put out there instead of actually living at all. I don't know why but this is something on my mind 95% of the time.

I've been doing that a while now, too. I hope I pass by something you've made sometime. <3