Major reasons why you're depressed/suicidal

[Cunanan77]

What are the major reasons why suicide seems like a good option ?

I have a list of reasons and answer too long for me to post in detail. As a summary; I got bullied and abused my entire life, everyone hates me, I have schizophrenia that started in young adulthood, I have fetal alcohol syndrome by a mother who denies it. My upbringing was difficult due to my sister being sick "bpd and anorexia" which caused a turbulent and hateful upbringing.

On top of schizophrenia, I have anxiety and ptsd. Difficulties socially, holding a job is really hard, I don't get integrated or accepted anywhere. I have an average IQ but my cognitive skills are in decline due to meds and my ilness. I take various medications just to function from antipsychotics, ssris to benzodiazepines the last one being the worst. Finally I'm very ugly, I'm planning on surgery but I'm already 25.

At this point I see nothing positive in my life, I can only work and hope for a better future, but suicide seems imminent.

 

[LivideLamb]

Maybe it's a silly one but I don't wanna see myself grow old. Even as a child, I never imagined myself past the age of 30. I don't wanna grow old, I don't wanna see myself decay more than now.

I also have schizophrenia and extreme anxiety, I can't live a peaceful life and will probably never live that way. My days are polluted by paranoïa, panic attacks, and an indescribable ache. It's not going to change as I will grow older, there is a good chance that it will be worse, I can't live like this anymore.

 

[Sky66]

Health issues.

 

[Bleunoir]

Toxic relationship

 

[suicidalwillreturn]

Cowardness, laziness, pessimistic/realistic view, can't accept reality/ can't accept myself. Thoughts are scrambled, mood changes, a lot of things that I may/may not be overthinking who knows. What do I know?

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Autism and its many associated problems

 

[Gaga786]

Childhood trauma from abuse and neglect that plagued my household. I also feel like at the age of 19, ive ruined my life by wasting time

 

[Hope:-)]

I don't mention some of it on here because I don't want to hurt my family if they're ever told by the police who I am on here. I don't want anyone to feel blamed.x

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, non existence will always be preferable to any kind of life. As long as someone exists, they have the potential to suffer. Suicide will always be the best option for me as I simply don't see life to be worth living in every single way possible. I see no reason to suffer and struggle when instead I could be peacefully not existing. Life is just a pointless and unnecessary experience that we go through for the sake of it. There are an unlimited amount of things that are wrong with being alive and I think that just being conscious is a form of suffering. I am not meant for this world at all.