Venting Made my decision. Tonight is the night.

[HarmonicScreams]

I've made my decision. I'm going to CTB via SWB tonight. There is a beautiful lake outside my house, and it's a peaceful place to do it. The same lake I grew up on for so many years...

Thanks for everyone who has gone through the trouble of listening to me and my BS. I don't think many people are going to care anyways.

I'll be online until 2:am EST to talk to anyone who wants to.

A day after, I would appreciate if mods deleted my account.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you a pleasant journey. May you find peace and freedom on the other side. Farewell and good luck!

 

[genesisofpasaqalia]

Wish you peace. Also, when did you come to your decision?

 

[HarmonicScreams]

Wish you peace. Also, when did you come to your decision?

Earlier today in the morning.

 

[Outandproud]

You have a history with that lake, that's beautiful. Im not very active here I don't know you, but im wishing you the best tonight and in case you decide to stay a little longer thats fine too.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Bon voyage - I wish you the best luck

 

[20ClownRules]

Your history with the lake... It's inspiring, to be fair.
Even if I'm new here, I know from first impression that you have a significant connection with it. With that said; I wish you the best and just in case: a farewell.
It's quite nice and overall beautiful to see how someone could decide where to place their body... I find that fascinating and wonderful.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

goodbye, wishing you peace and freedom from the chains

 

[genesisofpasaqalia]

Ah, got it. That lake seems very important to you. Very poetic way to go. Best of luck.

Earlier today in the morning.

 

[inmyhead]

I wish you peace on your journey ahead whatever that may be. If you don't manage it, don't feel like a failure. But going on a quiet lake in the middle of the night sounds very serene. I'll be thinking of you tonight.

 

[Outandproud]

Hows the weather there? Are u drinking something outside or having a smoke?

 

[Letgo]

Wishing you peace and rest. Thinking of you.

 

[HarmonicScreams]

Hows the weather there? Are u drinking something outside or having a smoke?

It's nice and sunny today. Been smoking cigs, weed, and I've had two beers so far. Just chilling while I still can.

 

[Zaphkiel]

Whatever is your choice in the end I wish you the best.

 

[soft-flower345]

I hope you may find the peace and respite you deserved in life

 

[20ClownRules]

It's nice and sunny today. Been smoking cigs, weed, and I've had two beers so far. Just chilling while I still can.

You know... It's always nice to make at least some good memories before it all comes to an end...
Glad that you're just chillin', because sometimes; that's what we need as human beings.
This thread in it's entirety makes me smile, in fact, I want to find the place that has made me feel comfort, safe, or something of significance to me.

Thank you for sharing.

 

[freonix]

it's so lovely that you get to ctb somewhere that means a lot to you and chill beforehand, not a lot of people get to do that! i hope you find the peace you're looking for :-)

 

[Dead Meat]

Wishing you @HarmonicScreams a very comfortable and pleasant journey on your way to everlasting peace and tranquility you Beautiful Soul

 

[InSearchOfLess]

may you find strength and courage on your journey… Godspeed friend!

 

[ggetout33]

You might already be gone but I hope you've made peace, stranger.

 

[tweaka2x]

I've made my decision. I'm going to CTB via SWB tonight. There is a beautiful lake outside my house, and it's a peaceful place to do it. The same lake I grew up on for so many years...

Thanks for everyone who has gone through the trouble of listening to me and my BS. I don't think many people are going to care anyways.

I'll be online until 2:am EST to talk to anyone who wants to.

A day after, I would appreciate if mods deleted my account.

I pray you find whatever it is you need to find peace.

 

[numbnesshuman]

Wish you peace and have a smooth journey

 

[nureinFuchs]

farewell

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world.

 

[HarmonicScreams]

About to get in the car where I'll get to a private place to smoke and then hopefully have the courage to "swim"

 

[20ClownRules]

About to get in the car where I'll get to a private place to smoke and then hopefully have the courage to "swim"

From the time I saw the thread, to now.
I wish you the best, friend. We may not know eachother, but at least you'll be happy where you want to be, and that's a beautiful thing.
Building up courage takes time, but my thoughts are: don't think of anything for the moment when you're there and just...
Let everything happen, if you really want to do this, don't hold anything back.
We're all rooting for you, friend. See you on the flip side.

 

[HarmonicScreams]

I dont even need a light the moon is so bright
Peace
Peace

 

[plurkid]

I was just looking at the moon, it's huge, I'm glad we got to share it on the same night. I have the same method in mind, I think it's very poetic. I wish you a good journey, well both be sleeping with the fishes soon.

 

[HarmonicScreams]

I backed out... just got back home.
I hyperventilate for 5 minutes, let the air out, and tried to hold my head under a community dock. But I could keep myself there long enough to pass out... I still care about people and I can't leave yet. I want to so bad. God I'm such a failure

 

[plurkid]

I backed out... just got back home.
I hyperventilate for 5 minutes, let the air out, and tried to hold my head under a community dock. But I could keep myself there long enough to pass out... I still care about people and I can't leave yet. I want to so bad. God I'm such a failure

I get it, you had more courage than most, I think the only thing that's stopped me so far is the same stuff, I have people in life I still care for, even my cat, idk how I'm going to go through with it, or even if I can. I still got to share the moon with you. I appreciate that.