Help Low testosterone making me suicidal

[cvury]

For a long time I've felt incredibly low energy and have had significant gynecomastia aka man tits which has made me so self conscious and part of why I want to end it all. I'm suicidal all the time, I have my dad's revolver and am thinking about just doing it, I've come really close. Ive also have dozens of hospitalizations and diagnosed BPD, I'm just sick of it all. I've been going to the gym a lot and theorize if my depression are due to low testosterone, so I got a blood test and do indeed have low t. I'm wondering if I hop on TRT or other steroids it would make me feel more upbeat and that could resolve a lot of my issues. Please tell me what you all think of this.

 

[Average Joe]

I've often wondered the same, perhaps some of my depressive symptoms are as a result of low testosterone.
I mean, if you're suicidal all the time and ready to go with a revolver, then why not explore the gym and TRT?

Let us know how things go brother <3

 

[alwaysalone]

For a long time I've felt incredibly low energy and have had significant gynecomastia aka man tits which has made me so self conscious and part of why I want to end it all. I'm suicidal all the time, I have my dad's revolver and am thinking about just doing it, I've come really close. Ive also have dozens of hospitalizations and diagnosed BPD, I'm just sick of it all. I've been going to the gym a lot and theorize if my depression are due to low testosterone, so I got a blood test and do indeed have low t. I'm wondering if I hop on TRT or other steroids it would make me feel more upbeat and that could resolve a lot of my issues. Please tell me what you all think of this.

It could probably work just be careful. Steroids aren't that bad in and of themselves. It's when a person abuses them. Also have you seen a Dr. about gynocomastia? I believe there may be treatments.

 

[EternalShore]

idk much (girl), but I know that going to the gym, as you have been doing, is supposed to raise it~ and ig, there's probably some supplement you can take for it too~ :) I'm mostly just posting tho because I know that testosterone also causes more impulsive and aggressive behavior tho, so I would be wary of it and sewer slidal ideation~

 

[dyingslowly]

For a long time I've felt incredibly low energy and have had significant gynecomastia aka man tits which has made me so self conscious and part of why I want to end it all. I'm suicidal all the time, I have my dad's revolver and am thinking about just doing it, I've come really close. Ive also have dozens of hospitalizations and diagnosed BPD, I'm just sick of it all. I've been going to the gym a lot and theorize if my depression are due to low testosterone, so I got a blood test and do indeed have low t. I'm wondering if I hop on TRT or other steroids it would make me feel more upbeat and that could resolve a lot of my issues. Please tell me what you all think of this.

I had this same fking disease and the best thing and the feeling is to get them out, there is surgical procedure to get them corrected, I have deformities all over the body but my chest looks and feels the best due to not having manboobs (After removal). I had them so big that people in college said that I should get a bra, constantly got bullied and much more. I feel so good that is over but the truth is that scars on soul will remain for life. I love these videos

 

[wham311]

For a long time I've felt incredibly low energy and have had significant gynecomastia aka man tits which has made me so self conscious and part of why I want to end it all. I'm suicidal all the time, I have my dad's revolver and am thinking about just doing it, I've come really close. Ive also have dozens of hospitalizations and diagnosed BPD, I'm just sick of it all. I've been going to the gym a lot and theorize if my depression are due to low testosterone, so I got a blood test and do indeed have low t. I'm wondering if I hop on TRT or other steroids it would make me feel more upbeat and that could resolve a lot of my issues. Please tell me what you all think of this.

It will make you feel better but you are committing to the drug for the rest of your life.

I came off after 12 years and my body is absolutely fucking ruined. I don't produce on my own anymore

 

[Average Joe]

It will make you feel better but you are committing to the drug for the rest of your life.

I came off after 12 years and my body is absolutely fucking ruined. I don't produce on my own anymore

Hope your feeling okay my brother, I wonder if taking the medication meant that your body didn't see a reason to produce it.

I guess this is the choice @cvury . As @wham311 said, you can take it and feel better but it's a big commitment.

 

[Droso]

If you cannot access testosterone through legal means, you can always DIY it like gym bros and some trans men. Though I'm assuming your doctor will probably treat you for low T, it would be quite stupid of them not to.

If you need any help accessing it, let me know. But you'll have to stay on top of your levels and bloodwork for a while until your levels stable. I would also recommend getting your estrodial tested alongside the testosterone. Once your T levels increase, it should suppress the estrogen in your body.

Either way, sex hormones contribute a LOT to our mood, behavior, emotions and thoughts. I believe you would benefit a lot from doing TRT. When I first got on testosterone, it was like I could think clearly for the first time.