loving you when you arent looking

[evilnkaa]

A small letter to him.
I'm exhausted, frustrated, angry ,confused, and scared. I'm sorry for the way I treated you when we were together. Countless nights I sat nagging you. Countless times I have spent telling you to stay with me or I'd ctb. I don't know if I'm your person. I can't read minds,tell the future, or any superpower. I break down, I freak out, and I lash out. When we were apart I missed you most. When I had moments to think I thought of you. I want you to feel the same. I want you. To be able to call you mine. To love you and care for you when times are rough,,, to be there like blood is there for our bodies. I choose you in every space, universe, lifetime, planet,timeline, every scenario I have picked you. Even when I wasn't the one you chose I didn't care. Seeing you happy even if it's not with me made me happy. I want you but I understand you not feeling the same. I'm so stuck on you. Everyday I beat myself up. I give up. I hope they treat you better. I hope you are loved. Cherished. Admired, I'm sorry

 

[diy-event]

I love the title of your post. Very poetic

 

[evilnkaa]

I love the title of your post. Very poetic

I love you

 

[diy-event]

I love you

blushes

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Sadly, I gave up on relationships a long time ago.

 

[evilnkaa]

blushes

kissssss

Sadly, I gave up on relationships a long time ago.

That's how I'm feeling