Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,469
Hello, I lost my suicide spot. I found a 60-meter-high terrace where I could land at the very bottom, either on grass or hard ground... in short, it was great.
I could have used it between the beginning of 2023 and the end of 2024, but I didn't have the courage. But the problem is, I think the tower guard must have discovered I was suicidal and no longer answers me when I ask him if I can go up to the terrace for photos, as happened once before... before, he would say, "Fine."
In short, I'm disgusted. I don't want to travel 500 km to find a bridge. The travels make me very anxious, I have no sense of direction (I don't know), and I'm worried about repatriating the body for my family.
In short, this method, although it requires some strength, lasts 4.5 seconds, whereas my sn, even if it doesn't hurt, is extremely anxiety-inducing...
I feel like I'm dying.
I could have used it between the beginning of 2023 and the end of 2024, but I didn't have the courage. But the problem is, I think the tower guard must have discovered I was suicidal and no longer answers me when I ask him if I can go up to the terrace for photos, as happened once before... before, he would say, "Fine."
In short, I'm disgusted. I don't want to travel 500 km to find a bridge. The travels make me very anxious, I have no sense of direction (I don't know), and I'm worried about repatriating the body for my family.
In short, this method, although it requires some strength, lasts 4.5 seconds, whereas my sn, even if it doesn't hurt, is extremely anxiety-inducing...
I feel like I'm dying.
