Lost my gf

[Vexadin]

I recently lost my girlfriend. It was not a long relationship but we had a lot in common.
Cycling, hiking, just being active and we had so much to talk about. We both had the same future vision.

She ended things saying she didnt have feelings.

Im just so broken now, i for the first time had actually a positive outlook on live and i tasted hapiness for the first time.
And like that it just got ripped away from me...
Im broken now

 

[GoSan1]

Im so sorry to hear that. That feeling is crushing, as if suddenly thrown into a pit of darkness with no possible escape in sight.

I couldnt think of how I would feel if I found love, would start getting happy, and then have it taken from me. I would probably end it. No lies.
You have every right to be sad, full of despair, and just broken, as you said.
I hope that love does find you again quickly, I truly do.

 

[Vexadin]

Im so sorry to hear that. That feeling is crushing, as if suddenly thrown into a pit of darkness with no possible escape in sight.

I couldnt think of how I would feel if I found love, would start getting happy, and then have it taken from me. I would probably end it. No lies.
You have every right to be sad, full of despair, and just broken, as you said.
I hope that love does find you again quickly, I truly do.

I'm trying to cope with it but im at a stage where i don't feel anything anymore.

A year ago or so i also had a lot of suicidal thoughs, but they disappeared again. They come and they go...
But I'm not sure if live is really worth it...
I struggled since i was 12 im 25 now. And in various stages of my life i keep going to the same solution suicide.
I have my method ready that i researched years ago, i always kept it since it gives me comformt knowing their is a way out.
I just have to be strong enough to actually do it.

 

[Jisatsu]

Sometimes the brief ones hit harder because they show you a version of yourself you didn't know you were allowed to be. You didn't just lose her, you lost the proof that happiness was possible, and that's a brutal double loss.You're reacting normally to having hope dangled in front of you and then erased. I won't tell you it happens for a reason or that it'll make sense later. Sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes life just hands you a glimpse of something good and then takes it back like it was a clerical error. All you can do is survive the aftermath without gaslighting yourself into thinking it "wasn't that deep."
It was. And I'm sorry you're carrying it....

 

[BullsDon'tFly]

Breakups can be so tough they become unbearable, I feel you Vexadin. Currently into my 3rd "big" (2+ years of relationship) one and to me it seems that having felt like this before isn't helping, on the contrary the new one revives also the pain and the guilt I felt after the previous relationships. It is so bad everything becomes meaningless.

If you still believe in love (as a concept or something you want in your life, not with that specific person) the good news is... you're very likely to fall in love again in the future. But I know it's a thought that you don't want to have because you still love your partner, and it's completely normal to think everything's gone. I share the same grief, I hope you find your peace, whichever way it is best for you.

 

[Vexadin]

Sometimes the brief ones hit harder because they show you a version of yourself you didn't know you were allowed to be. You didn't just lose her, you lost the proof that happiness was possible, and that's a brutal double loss.You're reacting normally to having hope dangled in front of you and then erased. I won't tell you it happens for a reason or that it'll make sense later. Sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes life just hands you a glimpse of something good and then takes it back like it was a clerical error. All you can do is survive the aftermath without gaslighting yourself into thinking it "wasn't that deep."
It was. And I'm sorry you're carrying it....

Your message gives me acceptance in one way, thank you for that.
It feel understood by you. Everyone around me says to just suck it up, but they dont know how i felt my entire life

Breakups can be so tough they become unbearable, I feel you Vexadin. Currently into my 3rd "big" (2+ years of relationship) one and to me it seems that having felt like this before isn't helping, on the contrary the new one revives also the pain and the guilt I felt after the previous relationships. It is so bad everything becomes meaningless.

If you still believe in love (as a concept or something you want in your life, not with that specific person) the good news is... you're very likely to fall in love again in the future. But I know it's a thought that you don't want to have because you still love your partner, and it's completely normal to think everything's gone. I share the same grief, I hope you find your peace, whichever way it is best for you.

Thanks for your message, i also had a few longer relationships in my life, but this one felt so different i never felt as save with a person as i did with her. I saw for once the perfect live.
And that makes it so more difficult.