Lost my dear friend to ctb today

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I wasn't looking to make friends, much less expected to do so on a forum about suicide but it ended up happening naturally.

I already considered @CommitSudoku as a great friend, with whom I could vent, get advice and feel understood.
It's a shame that ctb took her away because she was a really great person and had a really genuine soul. She only wished good for everyone. But she didn't see herself that way because of her depression.

I'm going to miss her terribly, today I feel like the world just got sadder, emptier. I wish I could have done more to help her. I was not prepared for her to leave.

But I respect her decision and hope that she has finally found peace for her tremendous pain.

It is never too late to turn things around but for her it was too late.

Rest in peace my dear friend You will always be in my thoughts.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Making friends here can be difficult for various reasons. Some obvious and some not so much so. I'm sorry for your loss, all I can tell you is to try to cherish the time and closeness you two did have together

 

[Sittichmutter]

I am sorry for your loss.

 

[FuneralCry]

Rest in peace. At least those who are gone are free from all pain, they cannot suffer anymore and they found what they were looking for. I wish you the best.

 

[Bedrock48]

I didn't realise she had passed until now, that's terribly sad and I'm sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of you in this time.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Making friends here can be difficult for various reasons. Some obvious and some not so much so. I'm sorry for your loss, all I can tell you is to try to cherish the time and closeness you two did have together

Yes, it's true. Thank you so much. I'm feeling a little down but you're right, I'll try to concentrate on the good things we had.

I am sorry for your loss.

Thank you for your kind words.

Rest in peace. At least those who are gone are free from all pain, they cannot suffer anymore and they found what they were looking for. I wish you the best.

Yes, I hope she has found peace. She was in a lot of pain but she is/was an incredible soul. Thank you.

I didn't realise she had passed until now, that's terribly sad and I'm sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of you in this time.

It's sad, isn't it? She was an amazing person. Did you have contact with her? Thank you, I really appreciate that :)

 

[Bedrock48]

It's sad, isn't it? She was an amazing person. Did you have contact with her? Thank you, I really appreciate that :)

Limited but enough to get to know her character, it seems that the kindest souls are carrying the worst burdens sadly. She knew how much she was loved up until the end.

 

[luke_skywalker]

How did she go? Meaning method

 

[Zzzzz]

May they rest in peace, free from the cruelty of life.

 

[savoytruffle]

may she Rest In Peace

 

[CloseFriendofCamus]

Jesus Christ... That's unexpected...

Woke up with the message from her, saying goodbye and it only hit me later that it WAS a real goodbye...

I'm still shaken a little bit. I never had experience of someone saying their final goodbyes to me like that...

May she rest in peace...

I got my SN today, got my meto, will get antacids soon and hopefully I will also join....

R.I.P

 

[outrider567]

I wasn't looking to make friends, much less expected to do so on a forum about suicide but it ended up happening naturally.

I already considered @CommitSudoku as a great friend, with whom I could vent, get advice and feel understood.
It's a shame that ctb took her away because she was a really great person and had a really genuine soul. She only wished good for everyone. But she didn't see herself that way because of her depression.

I'm going to miss her terribly, today I feel like the world just got sadder, emptier. I wish I could have done more to help her. I was not prepared for her to leave.

But I respect her decision and hope that she has finally found peace for her tremendous pain.

It is never too late to turn things around but for her it was too late.

Rest in peace my dear friend You will always be in my thoughts.

Hope she found peace also--followed her last posts last night--When she said she was feeling cold I knew the end was near for her

How did she go? Meaning method

SN--her last posts are on the Counting Down thread

 

[rationaltake]

So sorry. I always appreciated her posts. And I appreciate yours. Even if I can't reply. Take care.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Limited but enough to get to know her character, it seems that the kindest souls are carrying the worst burdens sadly. She knew how much she was loved up until the end.

Indeed. Yes, she didn't die alone.

How did she go? Meaning method

I think at this point it doesn't matter. We should respect her soul.

may she Rest In Peace

Jesus Christ... That's unexpected...

Woke up with the message from her, saying goodbye and it only hit me later that it WAS a real goodbye...

I'm still shaken a little bit. I never had experience of someone saying their final goodbyes to me like that...

May she rest in peace...

I got my SN today, got my meto, will get antacids soon and hopefully I will also join....

R.I.P

Did you used to talk? Yes, unfortunately, it was for real. I had talking to her the whole time, I even stayed awake so she wouldn't spend her last moments alone. She was amazing.

I guess I still have a little hope that she will come back and for some reason she changed her mind at the last minute. Not knowing is the hardest thing.

Hope she found peace also--followed her last posts last night--When she said she was feeling cold I knew the end was near for her

It's sad. Peace to her beautiful soul.

So sorry. I always appreciated her posts. And I appreciate yours. Even if I can't reply. Take care.

Thank you so much, I appreciate to know that. I wish you the best.

 

[ClownMe]

Sorry for your loss

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I am very sorry for your loss. I wish it did not have to come to that for her :(

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Sorry for your loss

Thank you :)

I am very sorry for your loss. I wish it did not have to come to that for her :(

Thank you. I also wish it didn't end this way for her. Peace to her soul.

May they rest in peace, free from the cruelty of life.

RIP

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Dear @CommitSudoku,

I miss you so much already. I spend the day sad thinking about you.

It's Kitty's birthday tomorrow and I'm sad that I cannot send you a picture of her. I know you would love it.

I really hope that you're in a better place, have found peace and didn't suffer.

If you changed your mind please come back.

You were loved a lot

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Sorry for your loss I hope they Rest In Peace

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Sorry for your loss I hope they Rest In Peace

Thank you. That means a lot. I hope that everything is well with you as far as possible.

 

[whatevs]

On one hand I want to say that nobody should get close with people on a suicide forum (pro-choice!) but on the other being in the forum for a while without getting to know people sucks.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

On one hand I want to say that nobody should get close with people on a suicide forum (pro-choice!) but on the other being in the forum for a while without getting to know people sucks.

I know this could be the outcome but when I met her she was stable. In fact, she helped me a lot to get out of the hole I was in. And I got better partly because of her. I only wish I could have helped her the way she helped me but I don't regret our friendship. It hurts now but at least I was able to be a part of her life in these brief months. But I understand what you're trying to say. It's a double-edged sword.

 

[its-about-time]

I didn't have the friendship you had with her, but I always noticed her posts here and she really helped me get through Friday night. I was absolutely not prepared. I hadn't seen her Thursday countdown post, and I got online 20 minutes after her final update yesterday on it. I had an unread PM from her from shortly before she took the final move. That hits me super hard. I got on the site when I did because I had just finished a really hard conversation with a friend about my own suicidality. It's fucking hard dude. I'm sorry for your loss, I'm sorry for my loss, I'm sorry for the world's loss.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I didn't have the friendship you had with her, but I always noticed her posts here and she really helped me get through Friday night. I was absolutely not prepared. I hadn't seen her Thursday countdown post, and I got online 20 minutes after her final update yesterday on it. I had an unread PM from her from shortly before she took the final move. That hits me super hard. I got on the site when I did because I had just finished a really hard conversation with a friend about my own suicidality. It's fucking hard dude. I'm sorry for your loss, I'm sorry for my loss, I'm sorry for the world's loss.

I know, she just spread good around here and tried to help whoever she could. She had a very truly kind soul. I believe, I knew she was having a hard time recently but I didn't think she would actually make the decision to ctb. Can I see what she sent you by PM? I'm a woman in fact. Thank you for your kind words and support. I'm sorry for your lost too. The world definitely got even sadder.

 

[Ta555]

This has just happened to me with @VoidDesirer22 we were in contact a lot and became quite close. I spent the weekend crying. For once I can say, I understand how you feel. Sending you lots of love.

 

[its-about-time]

I know, she just spread good around here and tried to help whoever she could. She had a very truly kind soul. I believe, I knew she was having a hard time recently but I didn't think she would actually make the decision to ctb. Can I see what she sent you by PM? I'm a woman in fact. Thank you for your kind words and support. I'm sorry for your lost too. The world definitely got even sadder.

First message that I also hadn't seen was asking me if I wanted to chat privately and said she'd been having a hard day. Second message, right before her post, said she appreciated the conversation we had Friday and wished me well. I'm not sharing screen shots of private messages, especially someone now gone. Not how I roll. She's been in my thoughts today. Even on a site like this it's hard to be a part of something like this.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I was there yesterday, too, for her departure. It was a hard day. First it was @quix77 and then @CommitSudoku. It was too much.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

This has just happened to me with @VoidDesirer22 we were in contact a lot and became quite close. I spent the weekend crying. For once I can say, I understand how you feel. Sending you lots of love.

I'm so sorry for your lost. Thank for your words, it helps to know that someone understands me. I wish you the best and lots of love too :)

First message that I also hadn't seen was asking me if I wanted to chat privately and said she'd been having a hard day. Second message, right before her post, said she appreciated the conversation we had Friday and wished me well. I'm not sharing screen shots of private messages, especially someone now gone. Not how I roll. She's been in my thoughts today. Even on a site like this it's hard to be a part of something like this.

I respect and understand that.

I was there yesterday, too, for her departure. It was a hard day. First it was @quix77 and then @CommitSudoku. It was too much.

Its really sad. I'm sorry for your lost too.

 

[Cathy Ames]

This has just happened to me with @VoidDesirer22 we were in contact a lot and became quite close. I spent the weekend crying. For once I can say, I understand how you feel. Sending you lots of love.

Oh no... I missed that. I didn't get to say good bye.

 

[Water-Lily]

I wasn't looking to make friends, much less expected to do so on a forum about suicide but it ended up happening naturally.

I already considered @CommitSudoku as a great friend, with whom I could vent, get advice and feel understood.
It's a shame that ctb took her away because she was a really great person and had a really genuine soul. She only wished good for everyone. But she didn't see herself that way because of her depression.

I'm going to miss her terribly, today I feel like the world just got sadder, emptier. I wish I could have done more to help her. I was not prepared for her to leave.

But I respect her decision and hope that she has finally found peace for her tremendous pain.

It is never too late to turn things around but for her it was too late.

Rest in peace my dear friend You will always be in my thoughts.

I can't believe she died. We talked a few times and they helped me in my low moments. I appreciated their wisdom and advice and its sad seeing them go. They were def dealing with their own demons and I wished the held on. Though everyone is doing the best they can. RIP