Lost it all and starting back

[quietwater]

Hi, long time no see.

Recently, my life went to hell and I went there too—hoped I would remain there, but living is unfair.
I lost my house again, and lived for a month in friends' houses and motels, now I found a stable home again, hopefully.
I attempted to ctb in june, drowning myself if my tub, but my boyfriend found me and saved me.
I am now medicated and trying to "restart" a new life here—it's a place very distant from where I used to live.
But what is there to restare? I know I won't feel better.
People continue their lives and pursue their dreams and I am left behind, because the only thing I want is stillness. I just want a normal year to feel better without anything bad happening, but life has other plans.

I hope I can come back to post poems and stories here, at least.
Thank you for reading. <3

 

[Leonszabs]

Hi, I am sending my love to you. I hope that you can heal and I would love to see you post some poems, that would be cool

 

[QuincyME]

Hi, long time no see.

Recently, my life went to hell and I went there too—hoped I would remain there, but living is unfair.
I lost my house again, and lived for a month in friends' houses and motels, now I found a stable home again, hopefully.
I attempted to ctb in june, drowning myself if my tub, but my boyfriend found me and saved me.
I am now medicated and trying to "restart" a new life here—it's a place very distant from where I used to live.
But what is there to restare? I know I won't feel better.
People continue their lives and pursue their dreams and I am left behind, because the only thing I want is stillness. I just want a normal year to feel better without anything bad happening, but life has other plans.

I hope I can come back to post poems and stories here, at least.
Thank you for reading. <3

How did you drown yourself in your tub? Would it have worked if your boyfriend wouldn't have rescued you?