Lost all interest

[Lara Francis]

Now off all Meds, antidepressants and diabetic Meds.
Totally given up and lost all type of self respect.
Cannot be bothered to do anything.I am beyond help and dont want it anyway.
.The only time I feel my dead husband is during attempts in which I hear and feel him screaming at me not to do it.nearly overdosed on wed taking all the tablets out of the blister packs but knew I didn't have enough Meds to kill myself.
I have talked about acceptance before and feel people will not comitt sucicide until they are truly ready.sometimes there is no going back and the future will be brighter on the other side we hope.guess you have to go to find out.beats the shit and heartache here.I feel my grip on reality is lost and my life is slipping away.just needs a little push and I will be no more.I don't usually sware but all I can say is thank fuck for that.I think I will either be dead shortly or sectioned.
If it is the first and best option then goodbye and I hope everyone finds peace and happiness and an end to their pain and suffering by whatever means they choose x

 

[jerry]

Good luck Laura. Hope you find peace

 

[skitliv]

I hope you find what youre looking for

 

[Ssname]

I Hope you find your peace

 

[Lara Francis]

Goodbye x

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

Now off all Meds, antidepressants and diabetic Meds.
Totally given up and lost all type of self respect.
Cannot be bothered to do anything.I am beyond help and dont want it anyway.
.The only time I feel my dead husband is during attempts in which I hear and feel him screaming at me not to do it.nearly overdosed on wed taking all the tablets out of the blister packs but knew I didn't have enough Meds to kill myself.
I have talked about acceptance before and feel people will not comitt sucicide until they are truly ready.sometimes there is no going back and the future will be brighter on the other side we hope.guess you have to go to find out.beats the shit and heartache here.I feel my grip on reality is lost and my life is slipping away.just needs a little push and I will be no more.I don't usually sware but all I can say is thank fuck for that.I think I will either be dead shortly or sectioned.
If it is the first and best option then goodbye and I hope everyone finds peace and happiness and an end to their pain and suffering by whatever means they choose x

Can you speak to the dead husband? I had a family member suicide and for weeks afterwards i could smell the cologne they wore when they were around, and grabed my hand at one point, but no speech of any kind. Other family confirm as well.

 

[Jerryman]

Now off all Meds, antidepressants and diabetic Meds.
Totally given up and lost all type of self respect.
Cannot be bothered to do anything.I am beyond help and dont want it anyway.
.The only time I feel my dead husband is during attempts in which I hear and feel him screaming at me not to do it.nearly overdosed on wed taking all the tablets out of the blister packs but knew I didn't have enough Meds to kill myself.
I have talked about acceptance before and feel people will not comitt sucicide until they are truly ready.sometimes there is no going back and the future will be brighter on the other side we hope.guess you have to go to find out.beats the shit and heartache here.I feel my grip on reality is lost and my life is slipping away.just needs a little push and I will be no more.I don't usually sware but all I can say is thank fuck for that.I think I will either be dead shortly or sectioned.
If it is the first and best option then goodbye and I hope everyone finds peace and happiness and an end to their pain and suffering by whatever means they choose x

I know the feeling well, be good if there was an off button or we were told we only had a couple of weeks left to live . I'd feel relieved being told that. The pain and suffering can be apocalyptic, apathy is awful also everything has a pointless tinge to it.