im sorry if my reply is long, i didnt realize i had typed this much. its just that your comment certainly made me think a lot, in a good way. also, my comment is in the process of getting approved by a mod (perhaps i said something wrong?) so if you get a notification of my comment like three hours after my reaction, that's why. i hope you didn't believe i'd simply react and ignore it like a rude person.
first of all, 31kg is insane. seriously. this must've took some insane effort. im already struggling at 11kg (while i am not actively gaining, i am sometimes maintaining which is a bummer) so i cant imagine losing thrice the weight. all i can say is congratulations. again, thats insane! thats like, a bunch of fat triplets out of your body. you just gave birth like five times.
jokes aside, i really appreciate your comment. i hope i reach the same success. i, too, want to lose exactly 30kg—it would make me 50kg which is a healthy bmi for my height. sometimes i wish i wasn't short, but its just life, i guess. can't do anything about it, though. but what i can do is lose weight, at least. that stays under my control for the most part.
with the 11kg i lost, i """only""" have 20kg to lose. then we'll be even. i hope i can do it too. its very encouraging to see an overweight person succeed in their weight loss. a lot of people give up like myself before, it led me to believe that if they couldn't, i couldn't. its such a difficult journey, but you did it!
like you, i tried everything, only to be met with failures after failures after failures. of course, it doesn't help that im struggling with depression. i tried exercising too, and even went to the gym for a year despite my shyness, but my body is very weak after all those years of rotting in bed, i believe no amount of gym can fix the damage. i cant handle much anymore. growing up with an entourage who's rather fat made me believe it was impossible at first, and yet, seeing some of you succeed makes me believe i can do it too, even if im weak and unmotivated. its very nice.
im glad you found something that worked out. ill be honest, i didn't try the low carb diet, but i think i would've failed that too, because im a lazy bum who cant cook. i found out a calorie deficit helps a ton. ar least, for me. calories dictate everything, its insane. the amount of cals i ingested thinking it wasn't that bad because i only ate once a day… i dont know how i went all my life without knowing about calories. if i had known before… perhaps it wouldve been different. still, its useless to dwell in the past. better focus on the future, you never know what's gonna kill you (i hope its the bus for my case).
your comment about self-confidence and social acceptance makes me hopeful for the future, too. its screwed up that our current society is this way. i hate to be the "society…" incel type of guy (im not even a guy lmao) but its just so unfair that you're seen as a person only if you're fit. otherwise, you are perceived as a shadow of some sorts—your feeling simply dont matter as much as the others. i wonder why people believe that… but maybe if i had been skinny i would've thought the same. i dont know.
i do struggle with self-confidence, of course. most fat people feel this way. its not entirely because of my weight, but i hope that it can at least improve and alleviate some of my worries. initially, i believed my self-confidence was down the drain, that i could never find it back. but the fact that the scale has been dropping and you, a former fattie like me, telling me that it does get better even after the failures is helping me a ton. im still extremely insecure, its deeply rooted in the failures ive faced back then—but for all the failures ive been hit with, i can at least raise this success in the air with pride. i know it'll be my last one, so i intend to fully cling on it until i die.
im aware that its only 11kg… it's not even half of the weight i want to lose. still, its so much more to me. even though i am actively suicidal, i hope i get to feel the same experience as you before i die. i want to shine before burning and crashing, akin to a shining star falling to its eventual demise. its undeniably corny, yes, perhaps ill delete it from my thread later on ('post-write' clarity does hit different after a good nap, honestly) but i think its the best way i could put it into words for now.
again, thank you for taking the time to share your experience. its very much appreciated and brings me comfort to know that, not only did a person take the time to read my experience, they also share a similar one and understand me, in a way.
i also would like to thank the people who have reacted to the thread too, even if they most likely won't read this. i feel seen. it might be "only" four people, but its way more than enough. its incredible to me.
again, very sorry for the long reply. i think its a nice feeling, to be listened to, and to look forward to something, as i said earlier. with just a few words, you made it eveb better.
you don't have to reply, i know i talked a lot and there's just nothing to reply anymore. i wanted to let you know how much your comment helps.
i look forward to the 30kg weight loss. i hope we can match
. take care and thank you for the encouragement, of course.
