Joker2003
Member
- Feb 15, 2024
- 49
Anyone else feel like they're going crazy?
I've been socially isolated and without friends for years. I have no desire to ever leave the house, I can't drive, and I don't even want relationships anymore. I would be content never seeing another human being again. My dogs are my only company.
I think years of isolation has destroyed my mind. It feels like my psyche is shattered into a million pieces. I think that American society is garbage and everything feels pointless. My only desires are to play video games, walk in nature, and spend time with my dogs. I live vicariously through movies and TV shows. I also spend up to four hours a day daydreaming of a better life.
I always tell my therapist how defeated I am, but they never truly understand. Therapists always say that I should improve my life and take action, but what is there to improve? I am nothing but a mind trapped in a decaying body, and I live in a decaying world. My recent MRI showed that I have a chronic neurological disease, so now even my mind is decaying. My vision is distorted with static, I am always fatigued, and my body hurts.
Sometimes I feel like I am in the prodromal stage of a psychotic disorder, but I hope that it is just my anxiety talking.
Thank you for reading my ramblings. Have a great day!
I've been socially isolated and without friends for years. I have no desire to ever leave the house, I can't drive, and I don't even want relationships anymore. I would be content never seeing another human being again. My dogs are my only company.
I think years of isolation has destroyed my mind. It feels like my psyche is shattered into a million pieces. I think that American society is garbage and everything feels pointless. My only desires are to play video games, walk in nature, and spend time with my dogs. I live vicariously through movies and TV shows. I also spend up to four hours a day daydreaming of a better life.
I always tell my therapist how defeated I am, but they never truly understand. Therapists always say that I should improve my life and take action, but what is there to improve? I am nothing but a mind trapped in a decaying body, and I live in a decaying world. My recent MRI showed that I have a chronic neurological disease, so now even my mind is decaying. My vision is distorted with static, I am always fatigued, and my body hurts.
Sometimes I feel like I am in the prodromal stage of a psychotic disorder, but I hope that it is just my anxiety talking.
Thank you for reading my ramblings. Have a great day!