Losing my fight with Anxiety

[SinkingSlowly]

Sitting in my car crying and just feeling stupid for it. The anxiety I've been having is getting worse and I'm getting to a point where I'm just on autopilot. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not even asking to be happy I just don't want to live with this constant dread. I don't even know what i hope to get out of posting this. I guess I just needed to put it out in the universe instead of trying to hold it in. Perhaps this is the first step to making it better? I just feel less and less like a person and more of just a shell full of constant panic.

 

[motel rooms]

Are you on any meds?

 

[SinkingSlowly]

Are you on any meds?

Nope. When I started dealing with bipolar and anxiety 10+ years ago I never was able to find the right medications. I've been able to survive this long without them. But my anxiety is slowly becoming way too much to handle. I'm just trying to find a way to get past it if that's what's meant to be

 

[motel rooms]

Nope. When I started dealing with bipolar and anxiety 10+ years ago I never was able to find the right medications. I've been able to survive this long without them. But my anxiety is slowly becoming way too much to handle. I'm just trying to find a way to get past it if that's what's meant to be

You need to get your hands on some benzos, there's no way they won't help you at least a little

 

[SinkingSlowly]

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You need to get your hands on some benzos, there's no way they won't help you at least a little

I know they'd help. But getting meds would require to see some sort of mental health doctor and I'm long past that now. I don't think I'll ever be in a place where I can deal with all of that again. It's just how long I've been having to deal with this that's getting to me now. I'd like to think though that before I do anything rash I would take this seriously good advice. It's just hard to rationalize it in the moment when it does hit.

 

[ThriveOrDie]

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I know they'd help. But getting meds would require to see some sort of mental health doctor and I'm long past that now. I don't think I'll ever be in a place where I can deal with all of that again. It's just how long I've been having to deal with this that's getting to me now. I'd like to think though that before I do anything rash I would take this seriously good advice. It's just hard to rationalize it in the moment when it does hit.

You might be able to get them from a regular doctor. My mom gets benzos for anxiety from her regular doctor.

 

[motel rooms]

You might be able to get them from a regular doctor. My mom gets benzos for anxiety from her regular doctor.

Yeah. You can easily get them on the dark web too.

 

[gottago222]

benzos are a BAD idea.... nothing has ever made me want to ctb more than withdrawing from benzos. the rebound anxiety + insomnia + muscle twitching + sweating buckets...normal anxiety doesnt have shit on benzo withdrawal

 

[subj]

Nope. When I started dealing with bipolar and anxiety 10+ years ago I never was able to find the right medications. I've been able to survive this long without them. But my anxiety is slowly becoming way too much to handle. I'm just trying to find a way to get past it if that's what's meant to be

There are newer meds since 10 years.. get a smart doc to try thedm for you also new theerapies find a specialist in anxiety

 

[FuneralCry]

Anxiety can be very awful to deal with. I'm sorry you are in this situation. It can be horrible constantly dreading everything. I know it is hard to carry on when you cannot cope any longer. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[LADY007]

You need to get your hands on some benzos, there's no way they won't help you at least a little

He is right !!

 

[LeapOfFaith]

He is right !!

Yea but it won't help to get addicted either. So I would only be using them in emergencies