losing hope and i have no clue what to do

[butterfly3]

i've given up on life but i don't have a method. sn is just completely unavailable on the internet and they only sell to companies where i live. n is expensive and hard to get. fentanyl and heroin are illegal. inert gas is expensive, hard to find and finicky to set up. I don't want to hang myself in any way.
i just wanna die so bad but i don't know how. i was thinking of drowning but idk, i feel like si is really strong with drowning.

i just wish i could get a hold of one of those methods so i could just peacefully drift away, but the world is so against it that i can't. i don't even see the point of doing that, banning peaceful methods is just gonna make people attempt using more painful and harmful methods that paralyse you if you survive

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you feel, I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult for me personally. I have very limited access to methods. It is so unfair how others want to deny us the option of a peaceful death. None of us asked for this horrible life in the first place. If people want to live then that is their decision, but to me it is wrong to try and force others to.

I know that it is so awful wanting to leave so desperately and yet feeling like you are unable to. Peacefully passing away is all that I want as well, I deserve the peace that death brings. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.