Losing a loved one to suicide

[Greyhawk]

Has losing a family member, relative or a friend changed your attitude to suicide and how? On a typical Wednesday night, I was lying in bed fantasizing about blowing my head off when I got a call about my cousin's suicide. I felt horrible and my aunt's (his mother's) pain has caused me to have much greater fear towards killing myself because I'm afraid of my parents reaction.

 

[braintorture]

If you're dead you're not really able to know what they will feel.

If you don't like these thoughts - I suggest you stay honest with your parents and tell them how you feel. See if you can be listened to and potentially get help.

Either way I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[Jisatsu]

I've lost 5 friends and 3 exes to suicide . All I ever do is think about is ending my own life ...

 

[Greyhawk]

I've lost 5 friends and 3 exes to suicide . All I ever do is think about is ending my own life ...

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine going through that.

 

[Ratz]

Has losing a family member, relative or a friend changed your attitude to suicide and how? On a typical Wednesday night, I was lying in bed fantasizing about blowing my head off when I got a call about my cousin's suicide. I felt horrible and my aunt's (his mother's) pain has caused me to have much greater fear towards killing myself because I'm afraid of my parents reaction.

I haven't lost anyone yet thankfully but my mom shared her feelings and she told me in a round about way she would do it if I wasn't here. Like I was the only reason she hadn't but then again when I said I would kill myself and shared my feelings she just gets mad at me and even told me to do it. It confuses me. I don't wanna loose her but honestly if I was gone first it would be easier no? Like idk. lol idk if this contributes to the topic mb.

 

[batmanreal]

i lost a friend to suicide, they were the only person i felt close to. the whole thing just makes me want to ctb more. tbh, i think i'd feel differently if they had died in a different way.
i've lost a few people in different ways, but it doesn't really compare. losing someone to suicide is such a different feeling, i can't explain it.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I've known a few suicides
I have seen the grief it leaves behind
But it doesn't change my view at all
I think anyone who doesn't want to be here should be entitled to voluntary assisted euthanasia they shouldn't have to choose a violent method of exit that may fail
If those around us truly love us they should accept our decision, and obviously they'll be aware in advance that we are leaving so it wouldn't be a terrible shock etc.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Temporarily, but it changed after time passed and they recovered from it. Now I'm even more certain that it's a net positive, because the dead person no longer has to suffer, and their loved ones will move on.

 

[TheHolySword]

It breaks my heart to think the people I love most will feel the pain I felt

 

[rs929]

i lost my brother to suicide. my perspective on suicide changed for about a week after it happened. i already wanted to kill myself before my brother died but seeing how it destroyed my parents is what changed it for the week. but then some of my loved ones reminded me that the reason they miss my brother so much is because he was a good person to be around and if i died they would not feel the same way about me. so i dont really feel bad about leaving anymore because ive realized i cause way more suffering to everyone around me by being alive than by being dead. my suicidal thoughts are a lot worse than they were before he died. my brother was my best friend. i refuse to live without him. im never going to get better and i have zero desire to now that hes gone and everyone around me is tired of hearing me complain so i just need to die already. my biggest regret in life is not killing myself before he did. you just have to ask yourself, would your loved ones be happier if you were dead. and if the answer is yes then there is nothing to feel bad about.

"they would be better without me" is a telltale thought of a depressive mind. Are you really sure they would be better with you dead?