chudeatte
its over
- Aug 5, 2025
- 121
I literally cant do anything. there was a serious decline when I was like 14, I remember that year I went back to school I was a different person. before that I had dreams and I could do things, but at that age everything just crumbled. I didnt care about anything, and I cant even get myself to care now. even when I need to do something like go to appointments I put it off. if theres a way I can avoid going without serious consequences, I just wont go. my attendance in school was so shit because of this and it didnt matter how many meetings I had with teachers telling me I needed to improve, I just couldnt. anyway. its just so bad. I cant even do things I used to enjoy. I got a new game today because I thought maybe I'll get back into gaming, and even though I got up to turn on my tv I just gave up before that even happened. back to bed I go. for me lack of action is just natural. im literally the most passive person ever and it sucks. everything seems pointless, even the most mundane things like eating. the world is so dull for me and I dont ever see it changing because inside I feel nothing towards anything. ill never be anything and honestly this whole thing is one of the main reasons I want to die. what am I even living towards? its just so stupid. I wish I wasn't like this
