Venting lonely in my own relationship

[lovely_doses]

i love my boyfriend. i love him so much that i would end our lives to be together forever. though i feel so lonely and empty being with him at the same time. i always want to talk to him and have him by my side. i want him to be emotionally dependent and attached to me and just unhealthily obsessed with me as i am with him. i don't want it to be onesided anymore. i'm so tired of it. i end up hating him at times because he doesn't love me in the way i love him. it's been like this for almost 10 months and i just wish he felt the same. i wanna die. i hate it.

 

[ipmanwc0]

does he also want to ctb? will you ctb without him if he doesn't?

 

[lovely_doses]

does he also want to ctb? will you ctb without him if he doesn't?

no, actually he is like super negative about ctb and gets upset at me for talking about it. he loves his life. i think if i get too tired of this i might just ctb but for now i'll just keep begging for him to love me how i want him to in my silly little brain :3

 

[ipmanwc0]

no, actually he is like super negative about ctb and gets upset at me for talking about it. he loves his life. i think if i get too tired of this i might just ctb but for now i'll just keep begging for him to love me how i want him to in my silly little brain :3

he still loves you right? just not obsessively? is it part of the reason you want to ctb or something else?

 

[lovely_doses]

he still loves you right? just not obsessively? is it part of the reason you want to ctb or something else?

yeah, he loves me a normal amount. i just want him to be as obsessive as i am. it is currently the main reason i want to ctb if it ever gets to that point. i just daydream about it though

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

No two people in a relationship ever care/love at equal value, one always cares more than the other does to some degree. See this

 

[F Sea]

Hello
Only love that is reciprocated is worthwhile. May they offer you the same as you give, then you will feel completely satisfied
Good luck

 

[Rouge4000]

The way I see it a least you have him. At least he's yours. Cherish that