Venting Lonely, depressed.

[summer_night_cat]

I'm diagnosed with depression and avoidant personality disorder. I've struggled with low mood all my life. I don't have friends, can't seem to be able to make friends. I struggle to enjoy anything or have the confidence to do anything. I work and sleep. I make crappy decisions all the time. My emotions are killing me inside. I don't belong anywhere.

I wish i could find a way out. Or have someone to join me.

 

[deadbidaylight]

First of all, welcome to SS. I'm so sorry that life has brought you here. Hopefully you can find belonging here with a lot of us like-minded individuals. It's a great community.

I suffer from a lot of similar afflictions as you. Have you tried anything to help ease the symptoms?

 

[Lo$t95]

Hi there,

Loneliness hits hard hope this site helps alleviate some of it for you and make you feel like you have somewhere you belong. A lot of people with depression here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish for a way to be free from the suffering of existing, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[summer_night_cat]

First of all, welcome to SS. I'm so sorry that life has brought you here. Hopefully you can find belonging here with a lot of us like-minded individuals. It's a great community.

I suffer from a lot of similar afflictions as you. Have you tried anything to help ease the symptoms?

Thank you. I have received group CBT and individual CBT from a clinical psychologist. I've tried every mental wellbeing methods and pharmacological approaches. I don't think i was meant for this world.

I also just wish for a way to be free from the suffering of existing, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

Time and time again I've been told it get better. It never did...

Hi there,

Loneliness hits hard hope this site helps alleviate some of it for you and make you feel like you have somewhere you belong. A lot of people with depression here.

Thank you. I hope to find some like-minded people.

 

[tiredash]

Im curious, what is your job?

About doing stuff... Would you like to do other stuff if you could? I ask because I wouldnt do much else if I had a lot of money, but this seems to be rare, most people want to go places and stuff...

 

[Halfhourdays]

I'm diagnosed with depression and avoidant personality disorder. I've struggled with low mood all my life. I don't have friends, can't seem to be able to make friends. I struggle to enjoy anything or have the confidence to do anything. I work and sleep. I make crappy decisions all the time. My emotions are killing me inside. I don't belong anywhere.

I wish i could find a way out. Or have someone to join me.

Yeah, it would be nice not to be so alone.

 

[unnaturalmovement]

I got hit by a car last month while riding my bike. Totally my fault.
I just got up, got my things, the woman was freaking out on despair of me possibly being dead and i was all bleeding.
I don't want to brag, but i had no emotions on it.

I think that showed me how far i've gone and how little it all matters lately.

 

[tiredash]

I got hit by a car last month while riding my bike. Totally my fault.
I just got up, got my things, the woman was freaking out on despair of me possibly being dead and i was all bleeding.
I don't want to brag, but i had no emotions on it.

I think that showed me how far i've gone and how little it all matters lately.

tbh thats what i would do... in my case i have always been like that

 

[unnaturalmovement]

tbh thats what i would do... in my case i have always been like that

That doesn't seem the normal honestly
Not saying you should freak out
But its weird.

 

[summer_night_cat]

Im curious, what is your job?

About doing stuff... Would you like to do other stuff if you could? I ask because I wouldnt do much else if I had a lot of money, but this seems to be rare, most people want to go places and stuff...

The irony is i am a mental health professional... I don't fit into this world.

The irony is i am a mental health professional... I don't fit into this world.

I think I'd like to travel, although i find busy places overwhelming.. i don't seem to be living life.. just existing.

 

[depressedinsomniac]

Wait you work in mental health but...oh man oh man...THAT's TOUGH!

 

[summer_night_cat]

Wait you work in mental health but...oh man oh man...THAT's TOUGH!

Sure is ... And the toxic culture of the females you work alongside and other issues... It's enough to send anyone over the edge. :/

 

[outrider567]

I'm diagnosed with depression and avoidant personality disorder. I've struggled with low mood all my life. I don't have friends, can't seem to be able to make friends. I struggle to enjoy anything or have the confidence to do anything. I work and sleep. I make crappy decisions all the time. My emotions are killing me inside. I don't belong anywhere.

I wish i could find a way out. Or have someone to join me.

Three years and three months for me

 

[summer_night_cat]

Three years and three months for me

My apologies, what has been that duration?

 

[outrider567]

My apologies, what has been that duration?

My Live-in girlfriend for 35 years suddenly died from kidney failure then, been only half-alive ever since

 

[summer_night_cat]

No words can describe how devastating that is. I hope one day you find some peace.