Venting Loneliness makes me more suicidal.

[Jamesun]

I think I'm slowly rotting away. Lately, I've just been falling more and more into loneliness, and I think it's making me want to die more and more.
Every day that passes everything gets worse, the anxiety increases more and more, I would like to give up everything and die once and for all but something in my head simply won't let me, I wish everyone would forget about me but I'm so stupid that the fear of ending up alone consumes me. I would just like to have an accident and die instantly, maybe it would be even easier that way, even at dying they are completely useless.
I feel like everyone else is moving on, and I'm left standing there like a useless person, unable even to be happy. Unable to have a dream or a goal to truly live for, I sometimes wish I knew if I was really here to do something or just to die. If only in some of all those attempts I could have died, if only I weren't so useless.

 

[unluckysadness]

Same. I could have written these words.
Vicious cicle : loneliness makes me more suicidal and suicidality makes me more isolated

 

[ShipSeeksHarbour]

Loneliness makes me despair more and more.
For me I'm starting to get glimpses of a goal / purpose. But then it slips away again, or feels hopeless again, or out of reach. I don't know where I'll be with it in a week. Maybe I'll be closer to grasping it.