Venting Loneliness Communal Venting Thread

[Dejected 55]

I hate the feelings of worthlessness that come from being neglected and rejected. Why doesn't anyone value me? I must be awful to be around.

Random thought... is being rejected worse than being neglected? or vice-versa?

Rejection, to me anyway, has a range. A simple "no" rejection doesn't hurt me. I mean, I might be disappointed, but I can take and respect a no. Being rejected and insulted hurts... being rejected but then used or toyed with hurts more somehow... and being rejected in the form of just being ignored hurts the most in my opinion.

But then I think about neglect... neglect feels like it comes with more intent. To be neglected, I feel like it means the person has to acknowledge you and recognize you have needs and they consciously choose to neglect you... purposefully.

Does that make sense?

So neglect feels like a betrayal, I think... whereas rejection may or may not be personal at all.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

You can cry, scream, express your loneliness, do things to get more exposure be it positive or negative. It doesn't matter. Once you're lonely, you will ALWAYS be.

 

[Remember]

I don't even feel human. I feel like a ghost clumsily puppeteering a monster. I feel like a freak around other people, I'm always an outsider. I keep everyone at arm's length because I can't even attempt to get close without hurting them and being hurt. It's like a sad fucking joke every time I get my hopes up that someone will be my friend or lover. They just want to use me, or they don't yet understand what a fucking freakshow I am.

 

[EmptyBottle]

You can cry, scream, express your loneliness, do things to get more exposure be it positive or negative. It doesn't matter. Once you're lonely, you will ALWAYS be.

not always... tho yes, it is indeed quite tricky to start finding others. SaSu has helped me feel less lonely tho, and so does a community group I go to on Saturdays

 

[systemspace]

One sentence. I wish I didn't have to die alone.

 

[Spite]

Pretty much my entire life I've been lonely. It's all I really know. I've never had a social life or any kind of friend group.

As I'm getting older, it's becoming harder and harder to make friends. The problem is that most people in their 20s already have an established friend group and are not actively looking for new friends. Lots of people also form their friend groups while they are in school. I missed out on this entirely.

I finished high school with not a single friend, and now, ten years later, I am more-or-less the same unwanted, undesirable social reject I have always been. I'm pushing 30 now, and I really have nothing to show for it. I'm still a loner. I still have no experiences or cherished memories of ever hanging out with friends. I feel like this is what the rest of my life will look like. I'm really starting to believe that I truly was destined to be friendless.

 

[Doll Steak]

Yeah, I've wanted any type of friend or something I could find comfort in and vice versa for them, most people are not people I like though.

It feels like shit to desire something you know nobody owes you.

 

[Wolf Girl]

PSA for lonely people: it's normal and okay if you feel like you're missing out if you can't find a partner. A healthy relationship you have with a romantic partner is more emotionally, physically and intellectually intimate than any other relationship that you can hope to find. You *are* missing out if you can't experience that. Many people *in* relationships are missing out on this too because their partner is abusive, cheats, etc. Especially these days.

I responded to someone on another forum who was saying they need closure when someone ends a friendship with them by just blocking them. I explained that you can only expect that level of closure and effort from long term intimate partners and blood family. I told them they need to understand that friendships are mostly just disposable and temporary in our culture. Everyone thinks dating break ups by text are cruel and terrible, but just blocking a friend you've had for ten years without a word? No problem.

Our society values couples--not the weird third wheel that tries to pretend that their friends are actually secure attachment figures.

 

[Pluto]

 

[LunarEcho]

I also forgot what it felt like to be lonely.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I don't care if people fall in love with their AI chatbot delusion.

This world fucking sucks. Life fucking sucks. Dating fucking sucks. People are horrible, unpredictable and unkind. I *envy* people who can feel satisfied by talking to an LLM.

The fucking world's coming to an end. Let people be blissfully delusional.

 

[littleearthquakes]

This thread is just what I need at the moment.

I feel so horribly lonely. I've been pushed away by or accidentally pushed away everyone I've tried to be close to lately and everyone from my past. I try to make new connections but nothing works. My extreme health issues and disabilities make me feel so different and needy and weird. People don't like me or they treat me badly. It's been that way my whole life but even worse as I've gotten sicker.

Nothing feels right but then I regret ending things because I get so lonely. I've tried everything and having connections really does help me since being homebound and now bedbound but nothing lasts and it's heartbreaking and gives me nothing to hold onto or look forward to. I know I put too much on it but it's how I feel.

I don't know how to make friends or even be a friend now I guess. I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't care if people fall in love with their AI chatbot delusion.

This world fucking sucks. Life fucking sucks. Dating fucking sucks. People are horrible, unpredictable and unkind. I *envy* people who can feel satisfied by talking to an LLM.

The fucking world's coming to an end. Let people be blissfully delusional.

I wish talking to AI made me feel anything. Whatever works. Totally agree. The world is ending we just do what we can to make it any more bearable.

 

[leviant123]

I came back to this website for the sole reason of that loneliness really kicking my ass now, i'm glad that someone thought of this.
But seriously, loneliness is such a horrible thing especially if connection is something you truly desire. I have always wanted to have a friend or a partner alongside of me, or just a partner that is also my friend if that makes sense. Yet, no matter what I do people always end up leaving with no explanation. I have come to accept that I will not find love or any sort of true connection and it has made me feel dull; however, I would prefer this over those heartaches I felt every night. Yet i still want to talk to people somehow and online forums is the best thing I have in order for me to connect with people and/or let my feelings out. I try to do mindfulness methods and whatnot but it won't replace that desire I have for connection.

 

[battwinfntsy]

Yeah lonely too. I go days without speaking. I have no friends or family. No one knows I exist. I really wish I had someone in my life. Friend or lover any connection with ease my pain.

I feel you. it's so hard.

I'm around if you ever wanna talk.

 

[qwert3948]

i feel like a zombie, dead and alive. i've been so lonely lately i feel like it could kill me, or has already.

i have yet to decide if i should live or die. i'm just growing numb and drifting, being carried by the pressure of others. i just keep living and living and living and it is exhausting, because i have not ever felt alive. i'm just a body pretending to be a person

 

[Lady_V]

Breaking up is so hard. I have been alone since I was a child. I thought I had finally broken from that, that I would gain a partner I would be buried with, a family I could finally spend holidays with. But no. I once again have nothing. I won't ever have that because no normal person will ever put up with me, especially now that I am actively an addict. Between my eating disorder and constant sobbing, my vocal cords are damaged. I can't even sing by myself anymore.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yeah lonely too. I go days without speaking. I have no friends or family. No one knows I exist. I really wish I had someone in my life. Friend or lover any connection with ease my pain.

I thought I was the only one who could spend days without speaking. Isolation is a cruel thing, but I have troubles to connect with people, and I'm so weird. In fact, when I'm alone, I'd like to see people, and when I see people, I want to be alone. That must be this fucking autism spectrum. Just feeling like an alien

Breaking up is so hard. I have been alone since I was a child. I thought I had finally broken from that, that I would gain a partner I would be buried with, a family I could finally spend holidays with. But no. I once again have nothing. I won't ever have that because no normal person will ever put up with me, especially now that I am actively an addict. Between my eating disorder and constant sobbing, my vocal cords are damaged. I can't even sing by myself anymore.

I feel you. I'm so isolated and having real friends or a partner who truly understand me could make this shitty life a little bit more bearable. But it's not. Only a miracle can save me.
I send you hugs and all my love Fell free if you want to DM

 

[4Icarus]

I have some friends but I can't get too close to them or ask them for the kind of attention I actually need or I'll have no friends. I can't talk about how isolated I feel when certain parts of me or my interests are painted as disgusting or awful by a couple of them without feeling like I'll lose the whole support group and my closest friend doesn't see me as his closest: he's surrounded by people and also his job is draining him dry, I could never take priority even if it were killing me.

I can't let my siblings know how bad it is because they're dealing with worse. Chronic illness, abuse and neglect. I can't add more onto that, one of our cats just died, one who was part of our family for over a decade.

So I'm just sitting here. Going to support groups, hoping someone will accept me enough to let me live the life I was tricked into staying in and now I'm stuck living it until everyone else's lives get better. Getting told I'm not trying hard enough to get out of my situation might prove lethal soon, I do have an easy way out now, maybe. It gets harder and harder to leave the powder in the drawer, I'm trying not to open it until I need it. It'd be easier if I were actively employed, maybe.