Loneliness as reason to ctb

[TheHatedOne]

DAE have loneliness as their primary or way in the top reason to CTB? For me it's about the third main reason I'm going to do it. I can't bear feeling lonely 24/7 no matter how much time passed. Absolutely can't stand how other people have dear ones in their life and are appreciated and loved while I'm left here to suffocate in my own misery.

 

[imjusttired]

Yes, its also one of my main reasons. I can really understand what ur going through. Loneliness is a motherfucker and it hurts like hell… it really sucks . If you need a friend I'm focking lonely too so PM me :)

 

[Velvet Fortress]

It's the n.1 reason for me

 

[olkf]

It is not much of a reason. although it does make me depressed

 

[SomeoneDutch]

It's a significant contributor for me, to the extent I may not wish to CTB if I didn't feel that way. Unfortunately I tend to feel lonely in company of others too and I just don't seem to get along with most people, therefore not as easy to fix as it may seem.

 

[myopybyproxy]

yep, even if society was less of a shithole, i would still want to be dead because of personal flaws (weak mind, wrong body) and the fact that true connection seems ever more impossible for me. i am too unstable to expect anyone to put up with the burden of interacting with me consistently. and even if they would, i have the magical self fulfilling prophecy talent of pushing everyone away. i am incapable of sustaining relationships and it is entirely my fault.

i dug my grave, now it's time to lie in it.

 

[DeadMemes]

yep, even if society was less of a shithole, i would still want to be dead because of personal flaws (weak mind, wrong body) and the fact that true connection seems ever more impossible for me. i am too unstable to expect anyone to put up with the burden of interacting with me consistently. and even if they would, i have the magical self fulfilling prophecy talent of pushing everyone away. i am incapable of sustaining relationships and it is entirely my fault.

i dug my grave, now it's time to lie in it.

This resonates scarily well for me

 

[MissMySuzanne]

There are ways to reduce loneliness. A dog, for instance, can be a great companion. A dog doesn't compensate for the lack of human intimacy, but for most people it helps relieve the pain. Dog owners usually bond very closely with their pets. And of course professional therapy can make a difference, as can anti-depressants.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

yep, even if society was less of a shithole, i would still want to be dead because of personal flaws (weak mind, wrong body) and the fact that true connection seems ever more impossible for me. i am too unstable to expect anyone to put up with the burden of interacting with me consistently. and even if they would, i have the magical self fulfilling prophecy talent of pushing everyone away. i am incapable of sustaining relationships and it is entirely my fault.

i dug my grave, now it's time to lie in it.

I actually think it's quite easy to push people away. A little bit of suicidality and instability is more than enough. I also would stay away from people with suicidal ideation if I was consistently happy. Why would I want to fuck that up and drag myself down?

(My favourite person left me lol)

 

[HappyForever?]

It is THE main reason I'm going to ctb. I think I'm too ugly and short to be loved but I've seen people less attractive than me get into relationships so I guess I'm just inherently flawed.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Big one for me. I think loneliness is crushing and will kill you eventually. Companionship is a need like food and shelter, except the consequences for going without creep up much more subtly.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

Not a primary one but definitely in the top ten. Can't live without it and cannot live with it either. I am not sure whether I ever belonged in this world of social animals.

 

[nottheend]

Loneliness sucks I spend my time either at work or in bed definitely a reason for me

 

[myopybyproxy]

I actually think it's quite easy to push people away. A little bit of suicidality and instability is more than enough. I also would stay away from people with suicidal ideation if I was consistently happy. Why would I want to fuck that up and drag myself down?

(My favourite person left me lol)

that may be true byt a lt of peopel are willing to pur pu with a ridiiculous amount of instability for no reasn i can fathom - desire to save someone, fantasy that the relationship wil work out, belief hat my instbility is like theirs and basing my proscpts on their own experince and thus they are optimistic and wiling to stick it through - or just plan stupidity.

sorry for any tyopis i am extremely fucking high right now.

 

[dearlybeloved998]

DAE have loneliness as their primary or way in the top reason to CTB? For me it's about the third main reason I'm going to do it. I can't bear feeling lonely 24/7 no matter how much time passed. Absolutely can't stand how other people have dear ones in their life and are appreciated and loved while I'm left here to suffocate in my own misery.

Yes, my primary mental disorder has the inability to feel emotions of affection and zest as a core feature (and many other things), so it's s the #1 source of my suicidalism.

 

[Sanva]

yeah. it sucks, I feel so alone. I barely go out anymore. and at the same time I really can't stand being around people. if I was normal and had friends like everyone else, I wouldn't ctb. but it's impossible for me.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Loneliness is not a problem for me. I love it. If I had a job in a European country where I worked 6-7 hours a day, 5 days a week, maybe I could continue to live :)

 

[Marktheghost]

It's my main reason for wanting to die.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

It's the n.1 reason for me

 

[clockface]

I would feel so much better alone. I have so much hope that someone will actually find me interesting or worth knowing. The never ending heartbreak of finding they don't is crushing. I'd rather not try and just be alone with no expectations of anything more.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Loneliness and my looks is the number one reason I'm going to CTB and no career

 

[Zegers]

Saturday night in front of laptop feeling like crying. Completely lonely and left out. Loneliness and all the rest is a reason, where life has led me.

- physical discomfort / emotional distress / health problems
- anxiety / depression
- stress even with stupid things
- lacking social life
- emptiness / nothingness

Feeling like this on a daily basis is like slowly dying.