Lol you know it's time to die when even people on a suicide forum think you're a stupid piece of shit

[it.only.gets.worse]

I really do mess everything up by being a stupid socially inept fuck up don't I? I find one place where I people understand but then I go and fuck it up as usual. I want to bash my stupid fucking head into a wall so that I can knock some sense into my dumb skull before I CTB. I can't wait until I'm dead so the world doesn't have to deal with me anymore.

 

[niki wonoto]

I know what you mean.
You still seem young though. I'm 40 (from Indonesia). And it's only getting much worse now.
I feel like I'm just an useless failure/loser who shouldn't exist in this world.

 

[Smart No More]

It's actually okay to get things wrong as long as you own it and learn from it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I don't know what you said or did but I have made dumb posts or said something dumb as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people can be cruel. If people are being unkind then it is best to try to avoid people like that. I'm sorry that you feel this way. Living can be very painful and I know that it can be very awful when things go wrong in life. It seems that in this life there is no escape from suffering.

 

[CursedSoul]

just know this : just because everyone say something is something, doesn't mean it's true. Sure, i could say you're the biggest asshole ive ever met, just because the whole forum comes in and agrees with me, doesn't mean it's right. I don't know you at all, so a family member could barge in and say "fuck off, i know my boy/girl, he is a great person, and you can't judge him/her because of what they said" well, funny enough, she's wrong as well, see it as this, nothing is right, and nothing is wrong. EVERYTHING goes by that logic.

Let me explain : there is a "6" on the ground, and the person infront of you see a "9", is he wrong ? not really, does he say the truth ? well nope, you can see a 6 as well. You can go to his place, he can go to your place, BUT THE 9 or the 6 will always remain, no matter how much people are on each sides.

What i mean if you don't understand me is, don't take shit from no one, no matter if it is true or false, because in the end, nothing is, it's just our different brains percepting things more or less. I know it's a hard thing to say, but try not to care. Just because a community is nice doesn't mean they are right, and just because a community is toxic doesn't mean they are wrong, life is just a shitty sandbox, or rather, a litterbox, feel free to bend things however you want them to understand them haha.

 

[Cathy Ames]

OP, I'm wondering what particular thing has happened to make you say this. Quite possibly it isn't as bad as what you are thinking.