Logically dying is my only option.

[ScaredToLive]

I have engaged with therapy, I take anti depressants. I am in shit loads of debt, have no money to eat, or pay back the debt. This is NOT a cry for money btw. What are the fucking suicide hotline going to do for me lol, "life is worth living"?? Is it, I can't afford to eat, so no I don't think it is really. If I die it all disappears overnight and my stress goes away

 

[completely-done]

I know what you mean. Debt magnifies everything too. The world does not position us at a head start, some of us have it crazily harder than others. Totally unfair

 

[albino_elk]

in your area theres no social organisations who gives food or a meal per day smth?

 

[nowayout*]

Debt is my main reason to ctb there's literally no other way out and I'm stressed and anxious constantly and can't handle it much longer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life can be very stressful and exhausting. I'm sorry you are in this situation. I can imagine it must be devastating. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I personally see hotlines as being pointless as talking to strangers does not fix actual problems. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[lastlife_]

I understand how you feel. I've battled depression and suicidal thoughts for more than half my life, I'm 31 now, and I hadn't really had money worries until last year. I gave up. After dropping out of university at the start of COVID, lockdowns and struggling to find a job I decided to just quit trying. Early 2021 I decided it's time to strongly consider ending my life. Since then I've been surviving on whatever money I had left while still trying to pay my bills and debts. I sold things online just to account for some bills, but I've got nothing left. I have one more bill due in 7 days and then my account hits zero.. I've literally been surviving on bread and beans for the last few months because I can't afford to eat either. It fucking sucks.. I don't want to reach out to anyone or ask for help because the last thing I want is to be a burden on anyone. Hopefully this will give me the push I need to succeed..

 

[ScaredToLive]

in your area theres no social organisations who gives food or a meal per day smth?

Yeah there is a food bank at my local big supermarket but honestly I'm too ashamed, and not motivated to use it. I'm about to get my phone cut off as well. Nightmare

I understand how you feel. I've battled depression and suicidal thoughts for more than half my life, I'm 31 now, and I hadn't really had money worries until last year. I gave up. After dropping out of university at the start of COVID, lockdowns and struggling to find a job I decided to just quit trying. Early 2021 I decided it's time to strongly consider ending my life. Since then I've been surviving on whatever money I had left while still trying to pay my bills and debts. I sold things online just to account for some bills, but I've got nothing left. I have one more bill due in 7 days and then my account hits zero.. I've literally been surviving on bread and beans for the last few months because I can't afford to eat either. It fucking sucks.. I don't want to reach out to anyone or ask for help because the last thing I want is to be a burden on anyone. Hopefully this will give me the push I need to succeed..

Sorry to hear that. I'm the exact situation as you pretty much, the debt is killing me I am struggling to even buy like toilet paper lol. That's what these fucking idiots don't understand "permanent solution to a temporary problem". I'm living an existence that is just suffering, misery and indignity, talking to someone isn't going to get me financially sound. Sick of well off people condescending about suicide. They've no idea what it's like to live my life

 

[Mr2005]

Sometimes it is logical and the only mental illness would be to think everything's fine. I'm speaking for myself of course which is all any of us can do

 

[CyberCat95]

Yeah I'm in a similar situation. People say 'it'll be ok' but how? They could at least offer advice

 

[StarryStarry]

I'm in the same position. It only makes sense to ctb. I'm 60 yo and to be quite honest, I'm tired of trying to live. I'm tired of trying to find a job, pay bills and do the right thing. Life truly sucks and there is not hope for my future. I am at peace with my decision.