I would love to get some perspective on this. Do you feel like your drive to ctb comes from a logical or emotional standpoint? I have bpd and it was always emotional before, but logic seems to have taken over and I know it's the only thing left for me to do. I've felt suicidal for over 20 years. Since I started making active plans a few weeks ago, it's logic that's driving it but with spouts of bpd emotion. Do you think more people ctb in a logical state or emotional overwhelm state? Reason I ask is because I'm doing my last few days in work, and surface level enjoying it. Sun has been shining here and I have great clients, so surface level it's been okay but I've been saying goodbye to them all in my own way. The calmness in me reassures me in one way that I'm at peace with it but also, it feels different now that it's mostly logical.
So yeah, in the final weeks, logic vs emotion?
So yeah, in the final weeks, logic vs emotion?
