Clut
Member
- Feb 28, 2020
- 68
It looks awful to me, unless you're lucky enough to be happy and healthy well into your winter years. I remember even as a kid seeing old people with uncontrollable tremors, unable to stand up straight stooped over a walking stick taking 30 minutes to walk 10 steps, in wheelchairs with limited to no mobility and so on and just thinking... No.. Fuck that. And I still feel that way. Then add decades more suffering even whilst I'm still physically able I just don't want that for myself. I also remember my lovely old nana (grandmother for those across the pond) and her devastating battle with alzheimers and I just don't want to go through that or for my family if I have any left by then to witness it. I think it would be much better to be back with my nana in the afterlife if there is one, with her as her pre alzheimers self. Who knows, but if old age is an achievement its not one I particularly care to get the medal for.
I agree. I first witnessed it in my late teens when I was in nursing school and did a rotation at a nursing home. Nah no thanks. Horrifying. If anyone tells me it's a blessing to be old I say well then visit a nursing home or hospice and come back to me with ur results. What got me the most was hearing their sad life stories, sad ending seeing pictures of them when they were younger.why would any rational human put themselves through this for such a tragic ending. Some of them looked just like me when younger. It hit me like this shit is real. When your young you think you'll be young forever till you see proof the old looked just like you.
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Failing eye sight, hearing, dentures, balance, reduced energy, looks, increased injury, friends dying, parents gone, odd health conditions, isolation, loneliness, boredom, pain, indignity, inevitable terminal decline and death...what's not to love?
ForensicallyAware
Specialist
- Feb 10, 2020
- 314
I remember in my first job one of my colleagues was an old guy of about 64, I used to look at him with envy, knowing he had got his decades of slavery over with.
Towards the end of my school days I would turn up at 9am , get my registration mark and then go home and go back to bed.
I didn't see anything unusual about this.
Towards the end of my school days I would turn up at 9am , get my registration mark and then go home and go back to bed.
I didn't see anything unusual about this.
I really wanted to live WELL for a long time. My grandmother lived until 102 and enjoyed her life until 90. My other grandmother is 92 and doing very well. She actually got so drunk last summer at a party, she fell in the bathroom, her head went into the trash basket and she put a hole in the wall with it. Didn't remember a thing in the morning. Now that's living!
I'm furious that my life is being cut short.
I'm furious that my life is being cut short.
a.n.kirillov
velle non discitur
- Nov 17, 2019
- 1,831
For some people, old age brings good things. Old people often have less desire and more equanimity. But yeah, mostly it's shit.
itsamadworld
i wanna die somewhere like up there
- Mar 15, 2020
- 410
I want to die young. What is young? I'm 39, and I just don't want to do another 25-to-life in the workforce. If so, I need something with inspiration....I planted a lot of plants and shrubs today, just cuz I wanted too.....but then I go to my memory care unit with the elderly job and ..I just wanna blow my fucking head off...I wish I could find peace....but I have considered suicide most of my life... Maybe it's my destiny...
TrailerTrash
Just Passing Through
- Oct 10, 2019
- 240
No old age - old age problems - nursing home - assisted living - none of that. I'm getting more uncomfortable every month and there's no way in hell I'm going to have crap like heart bypasses, cancer treatments, and other medical treatments done. I can use my SN and antiemetics or homemade ReBreather that I have tested and works just fine for a night-night. I'm not having my hard-earned money go to doctors and care facilities, but instead to the people I want it to go to and on my terms. No judgement for those who want to love as old or long as possible.
60 more years of this will be a horrific nightmare. No thanks
then on top of that. Just placed in a nursing home with assisted care experience more hell and misery I wouldn't even have the energy by then to end myself.
then on top of that. Just placed in a nursing home with assisted care experience more hell and misery I wouldn't even have the energy by then to end myself.
WrongPlaceWrongTime
Better never to have been
- Jul 4, 2021
- 695
No way. I don't plan on 40+ years of suffering in this bullshit scam called 'life'. Slowly becoming a rotten corpse with increasing health problems does not sound appealing. Optimistically, I can get an apartment in my 20s. That gives me a private space to ctb
Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,877
greyhound
Arcanist
- Oct 8, 2020
- 471
I think it's a complete crap shoot. I've lived in a couple picturesque places that have a lot of retirees. The ones that have money and their health are living the dream. Some are quite physically active into their late 70s. Both my grandfathers lived quite long and were very healthy into their late 80s. Travelling the world with a good pension. Yeah eventually their health deteriorated around 90 and they had a few years of decline. At the end one of my grandfathers put a DNR order on because he no longer wanted to live. But he was still in this posh retirement home with independent condos indoor pool catering restaurant etc.
In my case I've been chronically ill since my teens. I know there is no way I'm going to get the golden retirement years, so there is no point slaving away for them. But for some people their work does pay off and they get 2-3 decades of good health and leisure.
In my case I've been chronically ill since my teens. I know there is no way I'm going to get the golden retirement years, so there is no point slaving away for them. But for some people their work does pay off and they get 2-3 decades of good health and leisure.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,160
Old age is my worst fear. The human life expectancy is far too long in my opinion. I never want to reach old age, to me suicide is taking control over a life I never asked for and is preventing decades of suffering. We all deserve a right to die. I already feel so tired and have health problems at this young age. It is bound to get worse as I get older.
demuic
Life was a mistake
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,383
As someone who has wanted to and has tried a few times to CTB since the age of 12, if anyone had told me I would still be here at the ancient age of 59, I would have laughed. But in between tries and treatment, life continues to roll along and you try to deal because you have no choice. So all of a sudden, I'm 30 yrs with a son. And then twins. That's why I'm still here and why I tried everything. Guilt. So I waited. My kids are now adults. My priority is myself. And everyone knows it's a matter of time. My body is giving out, I had cancer and I'm addicted to dr. Prescribed benzos. I just found out 40 yrs of psych drugs and ECT has given me significant global memory loss.
So, don't do what I did. Don't get old.
So, don't do what I did. Don't get old.
NormaJeane
Member
- Mar 24, 2021
- 648
I believe that to die of old age is the worst death. I do not want to be old and crooked! Old people will suffer of age-related ailments for many years before they die. Life expectancy is too high. The body begins to age after we are 25. The human body does not last for 90 years. (but there are crocodiles who live for 220 years) Life is a personal responsibility. We must decide for ourself how long we want to live.
Sounds like a nightmare I can't avoid. I really hope I don't have a stroke or something
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I thought there would be some luck involved if I kept it together till age 50, still feel that way really, despite being 45. Ever since I was in my 20's I wondered how I would make it through, and at this age about the best thing I can come up with is you truly have to find a routine, and think one day at a time.
