Venting Living past traumas in a relationship

[Uhh]

Does anyone else stay in a relationship where they live through there past traumas every day. Why the fuck do I stay with someone that constantly says they're gonna leave me, that I'm fat ugly and who laughs at me when I'm totally distraught and having a complete meltdown. I love him so much but if he were to be all loving I know I'd leave. Why am I so fucked..... I'm bpd maybe this is why.... I dunno.... I'm just done with the bullshit. Can anyone else relate or is it just me

 

[EyesOfNight]

It's really not your fault. You were mistakenly taught that relationships are abusive. It's something you are used to and you subconsciously seek that familiarity. I am sorry you have been burdened with this.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've seen these terrible patterns repeat before. Children who grew up with wife beating fathers marrying wife beating partners. I'm so sorry. It's like EyesofNight said, I think we often seek out relationships we a familiar with. Not necessarily ones that are good for us.