Leonard_Bangley39
Hate life but scared of death
- Nov 6, 2025
- 228
For a few months I was planning on ctbing because after spending a year at trade school, i was still unable to find a job and will end up becoming homeless again. Although, after sharing all my pains and struggles with friends and people online, I've actually managed to feel better enough to decide to not ctb and try getting professional help.
But even though I plan to keep going, i still can't help but just hate this world we have been given to live in, and I can't blame anyone who wants to ctb because of it. For us Gen Z, we had our lives robbed from us before we even made it out of middle school. House and rent prices grow higher and higher every year. Wages not only stagnate, but effectively shrink lower and lower with rampant inflation. The job market gets worse and worse each year, to the point where unless you're the owner's son you have a higher chance of winning the lottery than getting hired. And even if you do manage to get hired, almost all the jobs available are offering soul crushing hours with wages that barely even cover your rent. And at any moment they want, tnat company will just fire you without notice and kick you to the curb, leaving you scrambling to find some way you'll be able to make enough money to pay your rent and not end up on the streets.
Meanwhile, social connections for Gen Z are a fucking nightmare. Especially if you want to find love.
How do you live in a world that has been expertly crafted to work against you in every way possible, since the day you were born?
For me, I've decided with apathy. I want to kill myself everytime i think about how i'll have to spend the rest of my life living paycheck to paycheck, working at a dead end job that slowly chips away at my mind, not being able to save anything. I want to work hard, but hard work doesnt give you good results anymore. so instead i'll just drift around this life until either the economy collapses enough for me to have a chance, or i die of old age.
But even though I plan to keep going, i still can't help but just hate this world we have been given to live in, and I can't blame anyone who wants to ctb because of it. For us Gen Z, we had our lives robbed from us before we even made it out of middle school. House and rent prices grow higher and higher every year. Wages not only stagnate, but effectively shrink lower and lower with rampant inflation. The job market gets worse and worse each year, to the point where unless you're the owner's son you have a higher chance of winning the lottery than getting hired. And even if you do manage to get hired, almost all the jobs available are offering soul crushing hours with wages that barely even cover your rent. And at any moment they want, tnat company will just fire you without notice and kick you to the curb, leaving you scrambling to find some way you'll be able to make enough money to pay your rent and not end up on the streets.
Meanwhile, social connections for Gen Z are a fucking nightmare. Especially if you want to find love.
How do you live in a world that has been expertly crafted to work against you in every way possible, since the day you were born?
For me, I've decided with apathy. I want to kill myself everytime i think about how i'll have to spend the rest of my life living paycheck to paycheck, working at a dead end job that slowly chips away at my mind, not being able to save anything. I want to work hard, but hard work doesnt give you good results anymore. so instead i'll just drift around this life until either the economy collapses enough for me to have a chance, or i die of old age.
