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[TheLastGreySky]

I'm planning to CTB at the end of the month and I don't wish to include details here, however I want to record it. I know there's a lot of WYD fans here who might be interested in this. I need live streaming app or website that won't cut the feed, or I need someone who would be willing to watch on Facebook live and record/edit the feed/share it.
I don't necessarily want to use Facebook live but that's the only one I can think of.

So if anyone's interested please DM me.

 

[phoebie467]

I also plan to record my CTB. My plan is to create a folder in Google Drive, make this folder public and configure the camera to save the video in this folder. This way, when the video is finished, it will be automatically uploaded to Google Drive and will be available to anyone who has access to the folder.

This way, there will be no need to ask for help from third parties.

 

[sos]

please help me here

why would you want to record it

 

[Kusogaki]

please help me here

why would you want to record it

Learning purposes or just viewing pleasure. And a lot of people are just interested in watching this material.

 

[tsykoais]

please help me here

why would you want to record it

yeah i'm wondering as well but not in a judgemental way, i've always been curious about people who livestream their suicides

 

[amaluuk]

Use Facebook. The moderation is total garbage and you won't need to worry about doxxing if you're dead. That assumes your methods are firearms though, in which case you might wanna do what phoebie suggested and have some kind of automated record/upload system set up in case you're doing a longer form SN poisoning or other mechanism that you absolutely don't want to give people the time to stop you with.

You can also find a way to try and automatically stop the Facebook livestream at some point after you would be dead, this causes the site to automatically upload a VOD of your stream for people to save. This is how they 'saved' Christchurch, this is how they 'saved' McNutt. That is what I would do. Which I'm planning on doing pretty soon, actually, so hopefully we won't step on each other's toes a whole lot but I wish you well in your efforts.

 

[dolemitedrums]

I really can't relate to wanting to have this recorded. But it is interesting to have such different personalities on here.

 

[phoebie467]

please help me here

why would you want to record it

Hmm... Mainly because I want to x)
Secondly for learning purposes, because there is no public and complete video about the method I chose.

I have a good camera, a tripod, and the internet, so I think it would be selfish if I didn't do it.

I don't want to give too many details because it will sound like I'm trying to influence others to do it. If all goes well, my video will be released and I hope to answer many questions with it.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I also plan to record my CTB. My plan is to create a folder in Google Drive, make this folder public and configure the camera to save the video in this folder. This way, when the video is finished, it will be automatically uploaded to Google Drive and will be available to anyone who has access to the folder.

This way, there will be no need to ask for help from third parties.

The problem with that is if anything goes wrong like the video doesn't auto upload, then it was entirely pointless. Like, I get a lot of Peace of mind knowing that certain people will see what they've done to me. I know they won't give a shit but I hope eventually they do not because I'm being malicious but because I want them one day to realize the way they're living is actually killing people. I want the people who've hurt me to change like I've changed.

Learning purposes or just viewing pleasure. And a lot of people are just interested in watching this material.

Because I think a lot of people who do kill themselves on video are really incoherent and angry and delusional. This is something that I am wanting to do from a very sound place of being. I have CPTSD where I imagine people are following me and it's bad. Like it really messes me up, and ive owned to my mistakes. It's literally the only thing I can leave behind. I would rather explain straight up that I'm losing my whole world... But for 80% of people their situation can and will get better if they choose to invest in it.

But I'm not one to disappoint. I want to drool like a dog as I spasm. I fucking hate myself.

Use Facebook. The moderation is total garbage and you won't need to worry about doxxing if you're dead. That assumes your methods are firearms though, in which case you might wanna do what phoebie suggested and have some kind of automated record/upload system set up in case you're doing a longer form SN poisoning or other mechanism that you absolutely don't want to give people the time to stop you with.

You can also find a way to try and automatically stop the Facebook livestream at some point after you would be dead, this causes the site to automatically upload a VOD of your stream for people to save. This is how they 'saved' Christchurch, this is how they 'saved' McNutt. That is what I would do. Which I'm planning on doing pretty soon, actually, so hopefully we won't step on each other's toes a whole lot but I wish you well in your efforts.

Partial suspension. I don't really have the spirit left in me to wait 4 to 16 weeks or however long it takes to get SN. So I basically need a good 40 minutes before anyone figures out where I'm at.

Hmm... Mainly because I want to x)
Secondly for learning purposes, because there is no public and complete video about the method I chose.

I have a good camera, a tripod, and the internet, so I think it would be selfish if I didn't do it.

I don't want to give too many details because it will sound like I'm trying to influence others to do it. If all goes well, my video will be released and I hope to answer many questions with it.

I think honestly, for me... It's my only way I get to actually punish myself in a way in which might bring some people comfort and peace. I've been the aggressor and I've been the victim and honestly this whole human race and human condition is straight up demonic and I really don't want anything to do with this reality.
If I have to catch the bus to ensure that I never fall back into old habits... good riddance, just tag me and bag me. And if one of my persecutors get sick to their stomach and feels guilt and actually makes a difference in their life... Well that's good too. I don't hate them. I've been the wolf and I've been the sheep and I got to say... It takes two to tango.

 

[YosemiteGrrl]

Hmm... Mainly because I want to x)
Secondly for learning purposes, because there is no public and complete video about the method I chose.

I have a good camera, a tripod, and the internet, so I think it would be selfish if I didn't do it.

I don't want to give too many details because it will sound like I'm trying to influence others to do it. If all goes well, my video will be released and I hope to answer many questions with it.

Sent DM @TheLastGreySky with question....

I'm planning to CTB at the end of the month and I don't wish to include details here, however I want to record it. I know there's a lot of WYD fans here who might be interested in this. I need live streaming app or website that won't cut the feed, or I need someone who would be willing to watch on Facebook live and record/edit the feed/share it.
I don't necessarily want to use Facebook live but that's the only one I can think of.

So if anyone's interested please DM me.

 

[amaluuk]

Partial suspension. I don't really have the spirit left in me to wait 4 to 16 weeks or however long it takes to get SN. So I basically need a good 40 minutes before anyone figures out where I'm at.

Understandable. I wouldn't know what they're called but I'm sure there's a way to rig a video to remotely upload without direct interference if you so desire. If you don't want to trust technology, then perhaps you could do a YouTube livestream to a dead channel so there's at least a very low chance anybody will see it live, set the livestream to end at a certain point, and then when you go live set up some automated social media post or something with a link.

I do remember a while ago hearing a story about a guy who hung himself live on TikTok in Brazil and it took quite some time for the authorities to get involved, but I don't know where you live. Either way I wish you luck.

Hmm... Mainly because I want to x)
Secondly for learning purposes, because there is no public and complete video about the method I chose.

Admirable decision, to teach others about your method of choice.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Understandable. I wouldn't know what they're called but I'm sure there's a way to rig a video to remotely upload without direct interference if you so desire. If you don't want to trust technology, then perhaps you could do a YouTube livestream to a dead channel so there's at least a very low chance anybody will see it live, set the livestream to end at a certain point, and then when you go live set up some automated social media post or something with a link.

I do remember a while ago hearing a story about a guy who hung himself live on TikTok in Brazil and it took quite some time for the authorities to get involved, but I don't know where you live. Either way I wish you luck.


Admirable decision, to teach others about your method of choice.

Well I've already looked into YouTube and tik tok both require a certain subscriber account to go live now. That's why I was saying it's probably going to be Facebook,

 

[sometimesoon]

I have always considered doing it live or in front of a select group.

I don't think it's that difficult—all you need is a Zoom-like account, a laptop with a webcam, and the willingness of a few people to distribute the video after they watch it. If you choose a method like hanging, it's pretty quick, so it's hard to stop.

My concern about Facebook Live is that lots of people will be traumatized by it because they don't expect to see something like that. It's different if someone has signed up for it.

I am okay if I end up on WatchPeopledie. But I just want to be humiliated in death

 

[TheLastGreySky]

How awesome would it be if you could CTB on live video under some sort of contract so that your family gets paid? Just something that popped in my head that I thought was awesome

 

[sos]

idk what i just read but even if it was possible, dont do this shit on tiktok, youtube or facebook

if youre desperate, find someone who will record and post it

u can easily stream it using discord, skype or smthng else once u have found someone

 

[TheLastGreySky]

idk what i just read but even if it was possible, dont do this shit on tiktok, youtube or facebook

if youre desperate, find someone who will record and post it

u can easily stream it using discord, skype or smthng else once u have found someone

Pssh, I'm finna look right in the camera... And then say "what would YOU do for a Klondike bar?"

 

[Thefuture]

Learning purposes or just viewing pleasure. And a lot of people are just interested in watching this material.

viewing pleasure is a weird word to use. i understand morbid interest but it's so sad you have that little respect for yourself you would let ghouls take pleasure from something so painful and private.

 

[Kusogaki]

viewing pleasure is a weird word to use. i understand morbid interest but it's so sad you have that little respect for yourself you would let ghouls take pleasure from something so painful and private.

It's normal for this website.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

viewing pleasure is a weird word to use. i understand morbid interest but it's so sad you have that little respect for yourself you would let ghouls take pleasure from something so painful and private.

I like your response. It's painful and it's personal, sort of like pornography (jk).
Honestly if you want to know, I've been harassed the past couple of years by my narcissist ex-wife who took my kids by lying about me and getting her close friends to lie about me.
She made fake accounts and had them stalk me and intentionally message whoever I'm dating at the time. She's made false voice reports and then turned around and threw fits when the police called her out on their bs. I lost all my friends and family because of her Non-Stop 24/7 session.

I've been dead for years, and I'm hoping after release she'll continue to shit talk about me so that people see who she really is. And if they don't...
At least I finally get peace.

Like I don't know you guys, I don't expect you to believe me. The thing is I know I'm telling the truth.
And instead of one person seeing that... I'm literally getting people knocking on my door because of some of the insane crap she came up with. I've been done for a long time.

 

[Evelyn Lane]

You could ask someone on WatchPeopleDie to help you film and upload your suicide. I think they'd be eager to help you out.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

You could ask someone on WatchPeopleDie to help you film and upload your suicide. I think they'd be eager to help you out.

I think they might cream their pants. I feel really dumb but I can't believe I didn't think about asking on that site. I guess I'm worried about someone trying to stop me, cuz on this site at least you get to see people's Post history and see if they're pro or anti

 

[Evelyn Lane]

I think they might cream their pants. I feel really dumb but I can't believe I didn't think about asking on that site. I guess I'm worried about someone trying to stop me, cuz on this site at least you get to see people's Post history and see if they're pro or anti

Hey, I'm happy to help!

 

[sometimesoon]

You could ask someone on WatchPeopleDie to help you film and upload your suicide. I think they'd be eager to help you out.

I am certain that would be true. There is no shortage of people who want to see it. I have similar ideas

Learning purposes or just viewing pleasure. And a lot of people are just interested in watching this material.

you are right about viewing pleasure.

I am live streaming route and I already have people who have sent me emails and DMs about wanting to see it

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Honestly, it's been said a million times before by various people... But an orgy and then we all drink the proverbial Kool-Aid together? A guy can dream

 

[D34DbyD4WN]

I'm planning to CTB at the end of the month and I don't wish to include details here, however I want to record it. I know there's a lot of WYD fans here who might be interested in this. I need live streaming app or website that won't cut the feed, or I need someone who would be willing to watch on Facebook live and record/edit the feed/share it.
I don't necessarily want to use Facebook live but that's the only one I can think of.

So if anyone's interested please DM me.

I hope you are able to figure this out, because I would love to use it for my own learning purposes. Keep us posted on when and where you may be doing it.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I hope you are able to figure this out, because I would love to use it for my own learning purposes. Keep us posted on when and where you may be doing it.

If I do it it'll be the tail end of the month. It's just going to be me medicated and partial suspension, with my hands knotted together, the only thing elaborate I've been thinking is having them in a yoke kind of arch over my neck so I can't tug out the rope but I haven't figured out if I can do that without somehow webbing my fingers or making it hard to have them come undone. The way I probably seen partial suspension done is someone to almost flex their arms and let nature take its course.

But I know that SI is a factor.

 

[DontTouchMeImFamous]

Learning purposes or just viewing pleasure. And a lot of people are just interested in watching this material.

viewing pleasure? You mean like psychopaths? Sorry I'm not judging here, I'm only asking.

Another question if you don't mind, aside from learning purposes, why would one want to record their CBT for people interested in these things?

 

[TheLastGreySky]

viewing pleasure? You mean like psychopaths? Sorry I'm not judging here, I'm only asking.

Another question if you don't mind, aside from learning purposes, why would one want to record their CBT for people interested in these things?

Why don't you call every soldier who's ever fought and killed for their country a psychopath? America and the UK are two of the most powerful Nations on the face of the planet, and yet they jump into the Middle East to make a profit. Do you know what happens when a bunch of kids surround Humvees or try to block it? They get mowed down as presumed suicide bombers or as traps.
Everyone has their role to play in life regardless of their mental wiring or their personal interests.
We are mere pawns for those in power.
For sociopaths it seems that life makes sense only when they take the wheel and put themselves in positions of power. That self-awareness becomes a crown on their head, and though I do not condone any sort of toxicity or abuse, such topics are always gray and never black and white.

I don't judge anyone based on their mental wiring or their past experiences. Why I would film myself CTB and share it would be for a myriad of different reasons.That may be the only way a lot of you ever know who I am. And as personal as that may be to essentially dismantle myself live in front of an audience of total strangers, if it inspires one person to choose life because their situation isn't as bad as mine, then it's a well worth investment. And if it brings peace to one single person who decides to CTB by making them feel like they're not alone in this... Then that's just as important.

I am a highly sensitive person. There are some tiny things that upset me like the way people change their tone or their texting ever so slightly. And that's what makes me dangerous. Because as sensitive as I am... I can be completely oblivious to the sufferings or the discomfort of the people around me if I am not consciously considering them. I have single-handedly derailed my own life out of my arrogance and my unwillingness to face my emotions. I built a wall and when it came crashing down it hurt all the people that I loved, and now I have to face that fucking bitch - that fucking bastard - every single time I look in the mirror. And the worst part is,
There are things that I am legitimately innocent in.
But it's the word of a monster versus the word of a master manipulator. And in that regard for no longer having the evil in me to burn everything down at all costs to get my children home,
I have failed my children.

I am literally on my hands and my knees asking for the help from a God that although I believe in and have reason to believe without a doubt that he exists... In my arrogance and in my youth I have not only spit on him and his holy name, as well as his son and my Lord and Savior,
but I have denied him out of spite and out of senselessness.
The only one that can help me is someone that a lot of you don't believe in and frankly, I don't blame any of you for that. I had one "undeniable" spiritual event in my life that's really worthwhile that I can count as a testimony and I ran from it.
I basically saw something that people beg for for their entire lives, and flipped my Creator off and walked away out of fear of what that type of life might entail. And now I'm begging him, and I'm hoping that at least brings him some Glory that he might perform a miracle for me and for my family.

So whether you look at this with an open mind,
Or you see this as a delusion that helps me cope,
It's pretty clear I need a miracle or maybe even a few, and the variables exist.
But how do you gamble with your life without dozens of sleepless nights? I think we get to a point where we're all here, and that's why I want to film myself if I CTB.

To me this is the waiting room between growing as a person or choosing to quit.

 

[lixiane]

I like your response. It's painful and it's personal, sort of like pornography (jk).
Honestly if you want to know, I've been harassed the past couple of years by my narcissist ex-wife who took my kids by lying about me and getting her close friends to lie about me.
She made fake accounts and had them stalk me and intentionally message whoever I'm dating at the time. She's made false voice reports and then turned around and threw fits when the police called her out on their bs. I lost all my friends and family because of her Non-Stop 24/7 session.

I've been dead for years, and I'm hoping after release she'll continue to shit talk about me so that people see who she really is. And if they don't...
At least I finally get peace.

Like I don't know you guys, I don't expect you to believe me. The thing is I know I'm telling the truth.
And instead of one person seeing that... I'm literally getting people knocking on my door because of some of the insane crap she came up with. I've been done for a long time.

I know this isn't the main subject of this thread but I'm so sorry to hear that. It must've felt horrible to have someone spread lies about you like that.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I know this isn't the main subject of this thread but I'm so sorry to hear that. It must've felt horrible to have someone spread lies about you like that.

It caused me to lose everyone around me, but other than my children, I don't care what anyone else believes. I appreciate that though.