Grey Worm
New Member
- Nov 15, 2024
- 4
When I am removed from my escapisms I realize how pathetic my existence is, and how little desire I have to participate in things outside my interests. I feel like a stone. I think about my impending death.
The money I have to sustain myself is running out. The 'easy' fix would be to get a normal job, but I think I've long accepted death over participating in society. Before covid I was already socially isolated & homebound for my entire life after middle school.
I have online friends and acquaintances I cherish but I do not share their drives. When they talk about grander ambitions for their lives I often cannot comphrehend them, as much as I wish I could.
I would be content with living modestly but society & its systems petrify me. My health has long been deteriorating, and the few doctors I've seen over the years have belittled me.
In the end, I still can see beauty in the world, just not my place in it.
The money I have to sustain myself is running out. The 'easy' fix would be to get a normal job, but I think I've long accepted death over participating in society. Before covid I was already socially isolated & homebound for my entire life after middle school.
I have online friends and acquaintances I cherish but I do not share their drives. When they talk about grander ambitions for their lives I often cannot comphrehend them, as much as I wish I could.
I would be content with living modestly but society & its systems petrify me. My health has long been deteriorating, and the few doctors I've seen over the years have belittled me.
In the end, I still can see beauty in the world, just not my place in it.
