Venting Life's Chapters

[thinkkank]

A Chapter in my life is coming to an end. I knew it would happen at some point. I thought it would happen on my terms and would be more pleasant. As usual I'm never in control and it's always uncomfortable. All chapters end. There was no way this was going to last forever.
The people who have been in my life for years will be gone. By this time next year they will be completely out of my life. I will never hear their voices, see their faces, deal with their bullshit. Eventually I will forget them.
I have had many bad people in my life during bad chapters of my life. They all went away and I forgot them eventually. This is no different. If I survived all of those chapter endings I can survive this. It is important during this time to remember everything that I went through.
I have to get used to this feeling.There will be many chapters in my life that end.
At the end of a chapter it's normal to lose something, even if you've had that thing for a long time.
The reason why i am unhappy about this the next chapter sucks. It will end as well but that might take awhile.
This is the part of life that we all go through and it sucks. I can't wish it away. I have to go through it.The only way out is through. I would like to think that after all of this I will become a better person.
What I need now is strength and courage. Strength to let go of the past and to pick up the new burdens and courage to face an unpleasant chapter.
How do you deal with a chapter in your life ending?

 

[Forever Sleep]

It sounds like you have a good approach to it. Change is unavoidable a lot of the time. But, it's also kind of natural that it will create a sense of unease till things settle again. A lot of the big changes in my adult life I instigated. Mostly because I was deeply unhappy in one situation so, tried to do something else. Even then though, even with the hope that the change would pay off, I still felt nervous and uneasy at the start.

I've found what helped me was to be kind to myself- to tell myself it was predictable and understandable that I was feeling worried. But then also- that it's too soon to judge straight away whether the change is for the better or not.

If you're going to be free of some more toxic relationships though, maybe enjoy the feeling of relief. That will soon be in your past. That was a glorious feeling for me.

I guess it's hope that pulls us through though. Hope that we are moving towards something better. Plus, courage- we've survived big changes in the past. If this doesn't work either, we'll try something else. I hope it is either good or at least, not as bad as you're worrying about.

 

[Pluto]

 

[thinkkank]

too true
I am nervous and disappointed. I am about to do something that I've never done. I am entering into a situation that is completely new to me and I don't know how it will turn out. I am also sad that it ended up like this. I'm going to lose a lot. I'm going to lose everything I have grown used to. It will never be as good as it is now. I am losing two things, the home I have now and the opportunity to have another home. I had it so good for so long and now it's all over. I can't fix this. I can't pray this away. I've been in situations where it looked like it was the end and it just ended up working out and the thing I feared never happened. That's not happening now. The thing I feared is definitely happening. This is not going to fix itself like it always has. I can't fix this. No one can fix it. My good luck has faded
I knew this would happen at some point. I have to accept this. I have to accept that this is where I am in life. It was inevitable. The only way out is through.

 

[thinkkank]

This month couldn't get any worse. My phone apps keep crashing because the internal memory keeps getting full and I don't know why. My earbuds and headphones aren't working properly. I had two pending legal cases, one involving my landlord's husband who assaulted me. I wanted to take the issue to court because it was a pretty big violation. The lawyer that was helping me said I would lose the case because they (the landlord and husband) would counter-sue and that would cause problems for me. They dropped me as a client because there was no way I would win. I had another legal case where the same thing happened, the lawyer dropped me because the case would go nowhere. It feels like everything is falling apart. Big things and small things. When life hits you boy does it hit you. It loves bombarding you with one problem after another.
I have a doctor's appointment coming up in a few days and it requires some blood work. How much do you want to bet that the test results will come back showing some disease that'll take weeks to treat. The way things are going I'm liable to be diagnosed with at least five diseases.
How did I get here? What did I do wrong? I keep thinking about what I should have done, but could I have made different decisions? Are these just the cards that were dealt to me?
What a way to end a chapter.

 

[thinkkank]

Despite these circumstances I will say thank you. I had it good for a long time. I had a roof over my head. A room to do anything I want. A kitchen to cook all the meals that I want. I had more food than I could eat, enough food to feed five households. The house was near coffee stores, shopping stores, bus stops, parks and creeks. It was a safe neighborhood. It had everything I wanted. The WiFi was good. The neighbors weren't nosy. It was more than I could ask for.
All good things come to an end. The past six years were good. There were some ups and downs, but all-in-all it was good, and I am thankful.
There are people who would kill to have the things that I had. They are sleeping on park benches, on cardboard on the streets, in shelters, and I'm about to join them. All the more reason to say thank you.
It will never be like it was, but at least I knew the good life. I had a taste of it, or more than a taste of it. I had it for so long that I took it for granted. I was spoiled. I was blessed, and I say thank you.

 

[Pluto]

 

[The Morningstar]

How do you deal with a chapter in your life ending?

Paper shredder



Edit: Ok, I read everything, and you have my sympathies. I made my other comment because I have no chapter in my life I would ever relive (unless I could rewrite it). I am glad you had some good parts and that you appreciate them.

I do not know what your future has in store for you, but from where I am standing, I'd say you deserve at least a comfortable life, if not a pleasant one.

For what it's worth, I'll be rooting for you, Mr. Duck.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

How did the next chapter go?