It is not just you. I am always thinking about leaving this world, it is all that I want. I see existence as being something horrifying and is not worth living. Staying alive is extremely pointless and just brings me more pain. It is not surprising that so many people in this world are suicidal. Life just seems to be endless suffering and misery for no purpose. It does comfort me, the thought of eternal sleep. Instead of the torture that is existing, there will be nothing and to me death is true peace. There is no peace in this life.