Discussion Life is so painful being around others makes so sick to my stomach

[Buddha.chris]

Every time I have to be somewhere in public it's a huge reminder of how different i am in the senses that I don't function like other people it's hard for me to have any interaction without someone asking me to repeat myself every time I'm out in public I start to sweat a lot and get really nervous I sometimes have thought of someone killing me or hurting me for being different and not understanding my condition does anyone else feel this way of am I over paranoid:(

 

[outrider567]

Every time I have to be somewhere in public it's a huge reminder of how different i am in the senses that I don't function like other people it's hard for me to have any interaction without someone asking me to repeat myself every time I'm out in public I start to sweat a lot and get really nervous I sometimes have thought of someone killing me or hurting me for being different and not understanding my condition does anyone else feel this way of am I over paranoid:(

I feel the same way about not going out--I don't like to be around public places at all, even the supermarket, its always a struggle because its always depressing

 

[FuneralCry]

I would rather avoid people, the thought of being trapped in a crowded place is so horrific to me. It's very true that you cannot trust and rely on people in this hellish world.

 

[scarletstarlet]

I feel the same. I have social anxiety and it's paralyzing. To the point where I'll isolate myself 24/7 just to find some peace.

 

[Whats wrong with me]

It's amazing that you can still be alone when you're in the middle of a crowd. I try to explain to my family how this is and they can't understand. It's as if the whole world has tuned you out. When really it is us that tuned out the world. The rejection is numbing.

 

[MrDarkness]

I share the thought exactly, I remember when In high school, we had a valentines dance, my mind just kept saying I don't belong here I don't deserve this, I had to leave as I was on the verge of tears and my suicidal thoughts were extreme. I almost attempted again that day. Personally I've some what suppressed my anxiety by listening to music everywhere I go

 

[OceanBlue]

Yeah, too different. Blending in is draining, I have to modify my personality in order not to scare the person senseless, nothing comes up naturally, it's like acting and I'm not especially good at it.

It's not unlikely to be killed for your unorthodox views if you're in a less liberal country, if some fascists decide to target you. It's not common for adult strangers to hurt/kill you for acting differently, they might care for a second and forget you.