Life is shit and has been like that for too long now

[HamzaSuicide]

I dont think I am "depressed" but my life is way too shit and has been for the last 10+ yrs now. I sometimes get bursts of "aight maybe life isnt that bad" but they dont last more than a day and are mostly triggered by some old friend showing up or get some source of money but nothing that lasts or something I can rely on, and then the waves of inadequacy hit me. Like I am destined to fail or not have a normal life.
Everyone around me living their lives, moving abroad, getting high paying jobs, have girlfriends, and or are getting married. Their biggest problems are being able to afford a house in the next 5 yrs instead of the 3 yrs they hoped for, or too many girls in the DMs and their girlfriend getting mad at them. And there I am sitting in the parents house rotting away so far fortunes and problems and I think to my stupid self that I am cant even fathom having these problems when I cant even have things that got them. And then they tell me you should be happy that you free of all these shackles.
I dont even feel like real person no more I cant relate to no one, I am a 26yr old living in a shithole country's worst city. I want to feel normal and part of something not some pest to everyone around, a statistical anomaly, a weirdo with nothing to show for.
I dont wanna die or do anything. I just wanna die.
(sorry I know people here have much more severe problems and mine could be just chalked up to having high expectations in life but I just wanna live this life I am given)

 

[Gaga786]

Your problems and beliefs are valid, no matter how small they might appear to be to yourself. That is out of the question. It truly is so hurtful seeing the pain you are in, and I hope I could do anything to ease it. I agree that everyone else seems to be living a better life than people like us and that must be extremely triggering. I just hope there is an exit from this cruel world because none of us asked to be here in the first place. I wish you the best, and you can always Pm me whenever you want. Take care!

 

[HamzaSuicide]

Pm me whenever you want. Take care!

Hey... I wantrd to PM you and @Amnesiaisalloverme for sometime now... but I am new here I dont have privileges yet.
If you do shoot me a PM

 

[Gaga786]

Hey... I wantrd to PM you and @Amnesiaisalloverme for sometime now... but I am new here I dont have privileges yet.
If you do shoot me a PM

I think you may need to post and comment a few more times, and it'll grant you the access to PM. Looking forward to hearing from you :)

 

[Avyn]

I feel similar to you. I used to get these small glimmers of hope when something remotely nice would happen but I gave up on it long ago.
I remember my old friends complaining about the stupidest things possible, calling their parents abusive for not buying them the newest phone and saying their life sucks for the smallest reasons.
It's infuriating being the one that's in a worse situation, yet not being able to talk about it because no one would understand and care.
Your problems are valid no matter how badly other people might have it.
If you need someone to talk to, you can DM me anytime!

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality is that in this hellish world there will always be somebody who can be seen as suffering more, but it doesn't make your feelings towards your life situation any less valid. It can certainly be awful and tiring feeling trapped in a situation that you hate, the reality is that there could never be anything fair about existing here.

 

[PainfulPainkillers]

I dont think I am "depressed" but my life is way too shit and has been for the last 10+ yrs now. I sometimes get bursts of "aight maybe life isnt that bad" but they dont last more than a day and are mostly triggered by some old friend showing up or get some source of money but nothing that lasts or something I can rely on, and then the waves of inadequacy hit me. Like I am destined to fail or not have a normal life.
Everyone around me living their lives, moving abroad, getting high paying jobs, have girlfriends, and or are getting married. Their biggest problems are being able to afford a house in the next 5 yrs instead of the 3 yrs they hoped for, or too many girls in the DMs and their girlfriend getting mad at them. And there I am sitting in the parents house rotting away so far fortunes and problems and I think to my stupid self that I am cant even fathom having these problems when I cant even have things that got them. And then they tell me you should be happy that you free of all these shackles.
I dont even feel like real person no more I cant relate to no one, I am a 26yr old living in a shithole country's worst city. I want to feel normal and part of something not some pest to everyone around, a statistical anomaly, a weirdo with nothing to show for.
I dont wanna die or do anything. I just wanna die.
(sorry I know people here have much more severe problems and mine could be just chalked up to having high expectations in life but I just wanna live this life I am given)

The reason you don't have these problems is because you naturally stayed away from what you were told and forced to do. This worlds system is based on making 99.9% of the population work hard their entire life and get compensated enough to have a house and some food. The people you are talking about are not free of problems, they may seem like they are but they are working for a terrible wage (not enough to do what they truly want), answering to a terrible boss they probably hate, and are in a life contract with a terrible bank for a mortgage. They are no more free then you are, in fact you are probably more free then them. You're not paying a mortgage, or obligated to a partner. You see these people as living the ideal life but I can tell you with certainty they are not, they are just trying to be like everyone else is and fit in but this does not make them truly happy, just normal. If you think this is an ideal life then go for it, but if you would rather have something more to life like freedom then chase the money. The one thing that these people don't have is lots of money and money buys your freedom in this world. Would you rather be working for a boss or be your own big boss? This is just some stuff for you to think about, I know now it might suck and you might feel awful but think about the potential future you, is this something you would want? To be more successful then these peoples entire bloodlines? Or to be working as one of them just fitting in?