Life is extremely HORRIBLE. More horrible than my wildest imaginations

[iloverachel]

Life is appalling, atrocious and downright horrible. It is awful beyond comprehension. It is pointless, meaningless and not worth living in my opinion. Life is a sick joke. Absolutely disgusting and horrific. So so terrible I can't even properly put it into word. It truly is a hellish abomination

 

[Linda]

Life is appalling, atrocious and downright horrible. It is awful beyond comprehension. It is pointless, meaningless and not worth living in my opinion. Life is a sick joke. Absolutely disgusting and horrific. So so terrible I can't even properly put it into word. It truly is a hellish abomination

So what are you going to do about it?

 

[davidtorez]

Life is unnecessary and hellish. We can only accept it until we can't accept it anymore . Survival instinct gets in the way of the final solution 99.999% of the time

 

[iloverachel]

So what are you going to do about it?

Unfortunately I don't think I can ever heal. Its been 8 years of trying to get better. Every medication and anti depressant under the roof, thousands of hours of exercise, finding work, meditation, thousands of dollars on supplements and even testosterone treatment, journaling, 4 different therapists, countless visits to the GP and seeing different psychiatrists, hospitalization, healthy dieting, meditation, getting multiple blood tests and fixing the defeciencies, the list goes on.

I am honestly tired and feel hopeless and trapped. 8 years of trying so hard, and i feel i have made no progress at all.

My mind feels damaged beyond repair. there is no hope left. All I can do now is lay down and rot and hope i die in a accident or something. ctb doesn't feel like an option because i don't want to hurt my parents. So I can only suffer in this hellish world

 

[ChildOfLove]

Life is appalling, atrocious and downright horrible. It is awful beyond comprehension. It is pointless, meaningless and not worth living in my opinion. Life is a sick joke. Absolutely disgusting and horrific. So so terrible I can't even properly put it into word. It truly is a hellish abomination

I mean that's why we're here

 

[iloverachel]

Life is unnecessary and hellish. We can only accept it until we can't accept it anymore . Survival instinct gets in the way of the final solution 99.999% of the time

I have already accepted life sucks for a long time now. It still doesn't help me cope or deal with life. Every day is the same suffering and torture. People say things will always get better but i sadly don't believe its true for everyone.

 

[divinemistress87]

Unfortunately I don't think I can ever heal. Its been 8 years of trying to get better. Every medication and anti depressant under the roof, thousands of hours of exercise, finding work, meditation, thousands of dollars on supplements and even testosterone treatment, journaling, 4 different therapists, countless visits to the GP and seeing different psychiatrists, hospitalization, healthy dieting, the list goes on.

I am honestly tired and feel hopeless and trapped. 8 years of trying so hard, and i feel i have made no progress at all.

My mind feels damaged beyond repair. there is no hope left. All I can do now is lay down and rot and hope i die in a accident or something. ctb doesn't feel like an option because i don't want to hurt my parents. So I can only suffer in this hellish world

I'm like you I have tried every treatment out there . Some of us just can't heal

 

[iloverachel]

I'm like you I have tried every treatment out there . Some of us just can't heal

Yeah every time i try something new or a new medication or new type of therapy, I always get my hopes up, only to feel crushed and disappointed.
I don't see light at the end of the tunnel, only darkness

 

[divinemistress87]

Yeah every time i try something new or a new medication or new type of therapy, I always get my hopes up, only to feel crushed and disappointed.
I don't see light at the end of the tunnel, only darkness

I'm the same way the false hope is really crushing. We have tried everything for years and people still tell us it will get better smh

 

[iloverachel]

I'm the same way the false hope is really crushing. We have tried everything for years and people still tell us it will get better smh

How long have you suffered from bad suicidal thoughts for? For me its about 8 years and a half

 

[divinemistress87]

How long have you suffered from bad suicidal thoughts for? For me its about 8 years and a half

Almost 7 years. I definitely get it

 

[Darkover]

So what are you going to do about it?

try to take over the world so i can end it all once and for all

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing truly is so horrible and can certainly get so horrible beyond how anyone can imagine it to. In my case existence itself is the problem rather than the thoughts of suicide. For me suicide is all that feels rational to escape from the meaningless and torturous burden of existing as a human. I don't get why anyone would wish for existence, to have the ability to exist is beyond undesirable, it truly disgusts me how humans procreate, to have the ability to exist is the most hellish, harmful imposition.

 

[iloverachel]

It truly is so horrible and can certainly get so horrible beyond how anyone can imagine it to. In my case existence itself is the problem rather than the thoughts of suicide. For me suicide is all that feels rational to escape from the meaningless and torturous burden of existing as a human. I don't get why anyone would wish for existence, to have the ability to exist is beyond undesirable, it truly disgusts me how humans procreate, to have the ability to exist is the most hellish, harmful imposition.

Agreed. Non existence or death will always be ideal. It is sad many of us don't have the option for quick and painless suicide so we have to resort to dangerous, sometimes illegal or painful methods that can cause permanent damage and make us even worse off

 

[Leiden]

I agree

 

[davidtorez]

Existing truly is so horrible and can certainly get so horrible beyond how anyone can imagine it to. In my case existence itself is the problem rather than the thoughts of suicide. For me suicide is all that feels rational to escape from the meaningless and torturous burden of existing as a human. I don't get why anyone would wish for existence, to have the ability to exist is beyond undesirable, it truly disgusts me how humans procreate, to have the ability to exist is the most hellish, harmful imposition.

Wish this would be the position of most people so they'd stop breeding .

 

[iloverachel]

Life sucks

 

[davidtorez]

Life sucks

Same shit day in day out. Just getting older. Less to enjoy and fuck all to look forward to

 

[hopeless08]

I have already accepted life sucks for a long time now. It still doesn't help me cope or deal with life. Every day is the same suffering and torture. People say things will always get better but i sadly don't believe it's true for everyone.

I'm sure for a lot of us it's the opposite,
things just seem to get worse, sadly

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

The older you get, the worse everything becomes: disease after disease, pains, age ailments and eventually the whole body breaks down. This is the hell of life - the slow death of old age.

 

[davidtorez]

The older you get, the worse everything becomes: disease after disease, pains, age ailments and eventually the whole body breaks down. This is the hell of life - the slow death of old age.

This is exactly why I wanna ctb.

 

[karmaisabitch]

Life is appalling, atrocious and downright horrible. It is awful beyond comprehension. It is pointless, meaningless and not worth living in my opinion. Life is a sick joke. Absolutely disgusting and horrific. So so terrible I can't even properly put it into word. It truly is a hellish abomination

I definitely agree with every word!!

 

[sdansht]

Life is appalling, atrocious and downright horrible. It is awful beyond comprehension. It is pointless, meaningless and not worth living in my opinion. Life is a sick joke. Absolutely disgusting and horrific. So so terrible I can't even properly put it into word. It truly is a hellish abomination

It's ridiculous how people turn a blind eye to the truth and pretend that life is worth living. But they have no other choice, because if they speak up about it, they will be met with scorn, mockery and ostracization by the society. This is a really sad state of affairs. It's like a bucket full of crabs. Nobody wants the other one to jump out.