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Leavesfromthevine

Leavesfromthevine

Untreated Trauma
Nov 23, 2023
339
The frustration when keep trying to improve your life is unreal when it just leaves you in a worse place mentally. A handful of people know I'm not well (not to the extent that I'm gonna ctb soon) and they always tell me just try talking to people or doing other things to improve life. I follow their advice because it couldn't hurt I mean I can still ctb like I wanted to anyway. After repeatedly trying everything accessible to me I just don't have it in me anymore. I don't care about money, girls, friends, or anything life has to offer. Life has lost all meaning for me.

I plan to spend my last weeks just rotting away like I should do. My pessimistic outlook on life makes me terrible to be around and I can't even hide it anymore with jokes because all the jokes are just as pessimistic. I wish things were different but this is just how my life was destined to be, not all of us are meant to live long.
 
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