Life hardly feels worth living

[Kadaver]

My life feels so pointless. I have one friend and that's it. I desperately want someone to love but there's just no one. I can't find anyone that would love me for me. I don't want to have to be someone I'm not to retain a relationship

I just don't want to do this forever. I want it to be over. The only good thing in my life is too surgery and that's not gonna happen for months. Even then I'm still fat and I don't know how to lose weight when I eat to make myself feel better. I just want to be someone I can be proud of. Right now I'm so far removed from that I feel like it's nearly impossible to reach

How do I live life until I can be happy? I don't want to live like this for much longer. I can't