life feels meaningless and I want to ctb

[cat_enthusiast_379]

I've been finding life to have more and more less meaning by the day recently and I've been thinking about ctb but idk how I would do it. I've been thinking about taking like 3 grams of dextromethorphan possibly some alcohol and maybe slashing my wrists. idk if that's a good idea tho.
anyone have a better idea?

 

[TheAngel]

Imagine a city where 2 million people live and each of the 2 million people have a dice of 3 trillion sides and everyone of them tosses the dice at the same moment and it lands in the same number. What are the chances of its happening? Mathematically, 1/ 10 to the power 147 trillion. That is the probability of being alive in this universe. Suicide doesn't eliminate problems of life it eliminates the chances of it ever getting better.

 

[CW36]

Imagine a city where 2 million people live and each of the 2 million people have a dice of 3 trillion sides and everyone of them tosses the dice at the same moment and it lands in the same number. What are the chances of its happening? Mathematically, 1/ 10 to the power 147 trillion. That is the probability of being alive in this universe. Suicide doesn't eliminate problems of life it eliminates the chances of it ever getting better.

You have been reported.

I've been finding life to have more and more less meaning by the day recently and I've been thinking about ctb but idk how I would do it. I've been thinking about taking like 3 grams of dextromethorphan possibly some alcohol and maybe slashing my wrists. idk if that's a good idea tho.
anyone have a better idea?

Cutting wrists and taking drugs is not a full proof method I'm afraid. There are much more lethal and definitive methods, like firearms and full suspension hanging.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings of wishing to be free from everything certainly are understandable to me, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I find it so horrible how it's purposely made so difficult to permanently escape from all the suffering that existing brings.

 

[アホペンギン]

You have been reported.

I knew that person's post was suspicious.. sounds like a pro-lifer. Thanks for reporting them, the fact that pro-lifers create accounts on this forum to encourage people that ctb is bad is absolutely unacceptable!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I've been finding life to have more and more less meaning by the day recently and I've been thinking about ctb but idk how I would do it. I've been thinking about taking like 3 grams of dextromethorphan possibly some alcohol and maybe slashing my wrists. idk if that's a good idea tho.
anyone have a better idea?

Welcome to the forum! As was said already slitting and cutting is not only painful it doesn't lead to success either. You can have a look in the Suicide Resource Compilation and read about way better methods there. I hope you find peace!

 

[CW36]

I knew that person's post was suspicious.. sounds like a pro-lifer. Thanks for reporting them, the fact that pro-lifers create accounts on this forum to encourage people that ctb is bad is absolutely unacceptable!

You never win people round by preaching anyway. It's all empty words. Still, they wasted their own time which makes me

 

[cat_enthusiast_379]

You have been reported.

Cutting wrists and taking drugs is not a full proof method I'm afraid. There are much more lethal and definitive methods, like firearms and full suspension hanging.

im not in the us so i dont have access to guns and i cant do hanging

 

[KAZ-2Y5]

Imagine a city where 2 million people live and each of the 2 million people have a dice of 3 trillion sides and everyone of them tosses the dice at the same moment and it lands in the same number. What are the chances of its happening? Mathematically, 1/ 10 to the power 147 trillion. That is the probability of being alive in this universe. Suicide doesn't eliminate problems of life it eliminates the chances of it ever getting better.

That's the probability of being alive? Is that supposed to make people feel special and love their life more? Love their anguish and never ending pain and torment? Do you even know some people's depression isn't all the "I'm a burden and believe lies my brain tells me :(" but some people have severe painful depression that manifests into physical pain; I've felt pressure in my head, in my brain, in my chest like it was gonna burst. I start to sweat and my heart races and it's such physical/emotional/mental anguish that tears you apart inside out; it is so incredibly painful no one should ever have to live like that esp not every day of their lives. And I was like this everyday for years as a child and young teenager. It still comes back like this. It's not fair to forcibly tell someone they shouldn't commit suicide on a fucking pro-choice website and safe space. We're looking for peace and everybody by the end of the day is gonna have their own version of peace and that's okay. You're reported btw

 

[Kera]

I knew that person's post was suspicious.. sounds like a pro-lifer. Thanks for reporting them, the fact that pro-lifers create accounts on this forum to encourage people that ctb is bad is absolutely unacceptable!

Oh, I didn't even have such people on my screen. But the post is not deleted?
I still prefer medication because I have no other options :( SN is too insecure for me.

I've been finding life to have more and more less meaning by the day recently and I've been thinking about ctb but idk how I would do it. I've been thinking about taking like 3 grams of dextromethorphan possibly some alcohol and maybe slashing my wrists. idk if that's a good idea tho.
anyone have a better idea?

@cat_enthusiast_379 I researched: "Dextromethorphan is available in the form of 30 mg Dexofan tablets. A minimum quantity of 1.8g is required, i.e. 60 tablets."

Accordingly, 3g could be sufficient!?
It also makes sense to supplement with
other medicines. Mixtures of substances are particularly toxic. However, the full dose of one of the medicines must always be present. Alcohol also increases the effect.

 

[Kera]

I've been finding life to have more and more less meaning by the day recently and I've been thinking about ctb but idk how I would do it. I've been thinking about taking like 3 grams of dextromethorphan possibly some alcohol and maybe slashing my wrists. idk if that's a good idea tho.
anyone have a better idea?

Whatever you decide, antimetic and sleeping pills are indispensable!