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intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
30
Don't you ever feel trapped? like you're suffocating? Like trapped in your own life, and you can't get out? Death feels so reassuring in comparison!
 
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Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,393
Yep, as I literally can't die from lack of effective methods so i am forced to deal with whatever pain I experience with no way out. I just want guaranteed safety of death but instead I have to worry whatever life gives me.

Life to me really feels like a prison sentence for a crime i didn't commit (being my parents having me) and now I have to do the wait time (natural death) or try to escape the prison (suicide)
 
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mashtheme

New Member
Jul 6, 2025
1
Its a nice reprieve. Sadly dying is as hard as living
 
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ChainedCrow

The crow of hopelessness and despair
Jun 21, 2025
382
Im too weak and also too tired of trying to CTB. Life just feels hollow, even if i enjoy things in my life i didnt chose to be born and i wish i was never born.
 
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StaticCryBabye

Sorrowful Pixel
Apr 9, 2023
207
I was forced to be here in the first place. It definitely feels like a cage that I was suddenly forced to stay in. It's funny how not only was I brought here without my consent, but I am also constantly threatened with decay and risk.
 
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LetMeOut67

Mage
May 7, 2025
594
It feels like only saints and psychopaths can possibly survive this hellscape
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
I am so FICKIGN LIVID that I was put into this place without my fucking consent and NO ONE will help you grt the fuck out of here, I ahe an ENTIRE FUCKIJG LIFETIME OF SUFFERING THANKS TO YOU YIU ABSOLUTE FUCKING ASSHOLES

I did NOT CHOOSE HOW MY FUCKING BRAIN WORKS OR ANY OF THIS SHIT I WANT THE FUCK OUT
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
I feel the same exact way. Trapped. I have no one and feel like I'm in solitary confinement. It's awful.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,500
I really understand, I also feel so trapped in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing peacefully, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to be gone. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel destined to decay and die anyway, existence really is an abomination to me that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings and I'd just never wish to exist no matter what, all I want is to never suffer again.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,412
It doesn't feel like a prison, it is.
 
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5_5

~ :¨·.·¨: ₊˚
Jun 15, 2025
44
yeah. but im too scared to ctb. it's really unfair
 
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Daniel_79

Daniel_79

Member
Jun 29, 2025
15
Worse than prison I reckon. At least if you're in prison you know why you're there and accept your punishment. I didn't commit any crime yet I'm still being punished
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Worse than prison I reckon. At least if you're in prison you know why you're there and accept your punishment. I didn't commit any crime yet I'm still being punished
Prisoners have it worse because they deal with the guilt of what they've done too
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
Prisoners have it worse because they deal with the guilt of what they've done too
I also have a ton of guilt for the shitty decisions I've made throughout my life. It eats me up inside.
 
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