Wanting to look more into beyond Efilism, my research led me to Gnosticism.
Looking through past threads, I ended up finding one comment that explained everything that I had been thinking during my childhood until now.
The original comment post can be seen here.
Basically, it explains the logical side of Gnosticism and the so called "survival instinct."
"In other words, Cosmicism is accurate for all intents and purposes:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cosmicism#Principles
Gnosticism is technically correct after a thorough removal of all associated religiosity/metaphysics:
Gnosticism (from Ancient Greek: γνωστικός gnostikos, "having knowledge", from γνῶσις gnōsis, knowledge) is a modern name for a variety of ancient religious ideas and systems, originating in Jewish-Christian milieus in the first and second century AD. These systems believed that the material world is created by an emanation of the highest God, trapping the divine spark within the human body. This divine spark could be liberated by gnosis. Some of the core teachings include the following:
- All matter is evil, and the non-material, spirit-realm is good. (time is abrasive, timelessness is friction-less)
- There is an unknowable God, who gave rise to many lesser spirit beings called Aeons. (Inflationary Cosmology)
- One evil, lower spirit being is the creator who made the universe. (omit this point)
- Gnosticism does not deal with 'sin', only ignorance. (raise your consciousness/self-awareness, and especially your Mortality Salience)
- To achieve salvation, one needs to get in touch with secret knowledge. (The works of: David Benatar, Peter Wessel Zapffe, Philip Nitschke, Thomas Metzinger --to name a few)
- time is an insult --at least in this universe.
Lastly, to recap: One can benefit greatly from living and dying by Exit International's mission: "A Peaceful Death is Everybody's Right" --not least of which due to the simple fact that death is the de facto destination of every individual born in this arbitrary, random universe (of which there may be an infinite number, in which case the one we find ourselves ingrained in may well be the garbage one out of the whole lot; other universes may have physical parameters (constants) which maybe aren't so abrasive and hostile--but we don't live in one of those peachy spaces, obviously). The individual is not figuratively, but literally a shadow of time.
death = real & mandatory
human life = random, artificial, and optional"
When my astrological birth chart recommended I look into death as a sform of spirituality, I ended up looking all the way into Gnosticism, interestingly.
As if I was surrounded by death from the day I was born.
As for the "survival instinct," it explains that there's no such thing. Instead it explains it like this:
" If you fear psychological survival instinct, you can come to the realization that this is equivalent to fearing a hologram and/or shadows, --since it is a smoke-and-mirrors trick of perception. If you find yourself fearing a purely psychological or metaphysical survival instinct, you haven't thoroughly removed the sociocultural software that is ingrained in your psyche --ingrained out of pure happenstance due to the haphazard placement of your world line within whichever random society, culture, era, your life (through no choice of your own) is randomly ingrained in.
There is no "survival instinct," only laziness/hastiness of method orchestration and its unsurprisingly subsequent "buyer's remorse" (of which there are more than a few examples of on this site: drowning, hanging, suffocation instead of asphyxiation, blunt force trauma, etc.)
"A successful suicide demands good organization and a cool head, both of which are usually incompatible with the suicidal state of mind."
In reality: I won't be "catching" some bus, but more accurately I will in fact
get off the
train (at a subjective
reference frame of choice). The train of which has been in
ceaseless motion & decay along a path to its final destination (death), ever since the very beginning of my
ephemeral &
finite Homo sapiens experience. "
In other words, it's not survival instinct but buyer's remorse.
And also suicide should be referred to "getting off the train" instead of "catching the bus."
Death is nothing to be afraid of. ❤
Reading the original post made things clear for me now.
